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Sunday recap, slow-moving Monday.
Feb. 3rd, 2025 01:52 pmbeen doing well in general, experiencing a slight bit of what the kids these days call "executive dysfunction" at the moment but feeling confident this cup of coffee will fix that problem right up.
it's interesting, having been sober for over 2 years now, how crazily euphoric I get from a cup of coffee. it's wonderful. It's like being buzzed but with none of the inebriation or headaches or lack of motor control and i actually become more intelligent instead of stupider lol. it's great.
Josh and I had a beautiful day, yesterday. (Saturday was really lovely, too - circus together, then coffee shop coziness and bonding and sparkling, then dinner and shows and popcorn and sexytime, so fun so fun.) While he went off to the gym in the morning, after breakfast, I tackled and cleaned every square inch of the bathroom (while running multiple loads of laundry). I was going to work on my own bedroom, but the bathroom has been needing attention for a while. Sink, mirror, window, sills, light fixture, walls, floors, cabinets, shelves, doors, Avalanche's litter box, and of course the tub/shower. It's so nice to have everything gleaming. It's an old dingy apartment so even totally clean, it still doesn't look wonderful, but it does look so much better. I keep pretending I'm practicing for taking care of a real home one day. A girl can dream.
We went to Broder Soder to celebrate Josh's birthday with Tyler, our dear friend who introduced us, and who has done so much to improve our lives over the last 12 years. Tyler so kindly got the bill for us (he let me tip at least). We visited Ole Bolle, one of the large-scale salvaged wood trolls that an artist has been installing over the last several years in the PNW and beyond:
Tyler's gotten really good at taking photos! One pleasant side-effect of having dated that self-portrait model girl a couple years back, lol.
After brunch we parted ways with Tyler and decided to walk up a trail that we walked on after brunch the week before, it's called the Flicker Trail and it's a short steep wooded trail in the Markham Hills trail system in SW Portland. I motored up that thing, it was super steep, we were cold and grateful for our raincoats over our fancy sunday brunch outfits, it was wet and muddy but walkable. I had lots of potatoes and carbs to burn off, so I was on a mission. We got all the way to the top in about 23 minutes and when we turned around to descend, it started snowing on us super hard. I was out of breath and flushed and had a huge endorphin rush, almost as strong as when I used to run, so I was high as a kite and grinning and laughing as we got dumped on. It amused me so much, I was so tickled and giggling. As soon as we got into the woods and headed back down the trail, it changed back into rain really quickly. It's amazing what a little elevation gain will do. We probably climbed about 300' in that push. So fun so fun. And then the sun came out for the rest of the day! So beautiful.
I finished my laundry and cooked Josh steak and veggies with rice for dinner, by his request, and enjoyed a few bites myself but mostly indulged in raisin cardamom bread we had picked up at the farmers market on saturday along with tea and hand-whipped whipped cream, with vanilla and the tiniest sprinkle of sugar, a favorite nighttime treat lately that staves off the munchies. But I did hit a wall with cleaning and decorating - my room still needs some tlc and my laundry needs more folding, and the floors need some love and the kitchen could use a scrubbing at this point, though I did get the stove really good this morning. I bragged to Josh about the gleaming porcelain and said maybe I was ready to have a real kitchen, but he's not receptive to the idea right now as the stock market is shaky and he feels insecure financially at the moment. I understand, it's okay, I'm happy wherever. He has responded so positively to the added attention and time spent together, it's so reassuring to see him so happy, he just glows.
I am seeing finley tonight, so hopefully that won't dampen his spirits too much, sigh.
Derek is still in the hospital, and my heart is hurting over him, erf.
K need to do a little bit of work and then try to clean and decorate, some. I am tempted to put off errands for another day but I really should pick up some food at least. We run out of fruit so fast, I swear Josh is part fruit bat lol.
it's interesting, having been sober for over 2 years now, how crazily euphoric I get from a cup of coffee. it's wonderful. It's like being buzzed but with none of the inebriation or headaches or lack of motor control and i actually become more intelligent instead of stupider lol. it's great.
Josh and I had a beautiful day, yesterday. (Saturday was really lovely, too - circus together, then coffee shop coziness and bonding and sparkling, then dinner and shows and popcorn and sexytime, so fun so fun.) While he went off to the gym in the morning, after breakfast, I tackled and cleaned every square inch of the bathroom (while running multiple loads of laundry). I was going to work on my own bedroom, but the bathroom has been needing attention for a while. Sink, mirror, window, sills, light fixture, walls, floors, cabinets, shelves, doors, Avalanche's litter box, and of course the tub/shower. It's so nice to have everything gleaming. It's an old dingy apartment so even totally clean, it still doesn't look wonderful, but it does look so much better. I keep pretending I'm practicing for taking care of a real home one day. A girl can dream.
We went to Broder Soder to celebrate Josh's birthday with Tyler, our dear friend who introduced us, and who has done so much to improve our lives over the last 12 years. Tyler so kindly got the bill for us (he let me tip at least). We visited Ole Bolle, one of the large-scale salvaged wood trolls that an artist has been installing over the last several years in the PNW and beyond:
Tyler's gotten really good at taking photos! One pleasant side-effect of having dated that self-portrait model girl a couple years back, lol.
After brunch we parted ways with Tyler and decided to walk up a trail that we walked on after brunch the week before, it's called the Flicker Trail and it's a short steep wooded trail in the Markham Hills trail system in SW Portland. I motored up that thing, it was super steep, we were cold and grateful for our raincoats over our fancy sunday brunch outfits, it was wet and muddy but walkable. I had lots of potatoes and carbs to burn off, so I was on a mission. We got all the way to the top in about 23 minutes and when we turned around to descend, it started snowing on us super hard. I was out of breath and flushed and had a huge endorphin rush, almost as strong as when I used to run, so I was high as a kite and grinning and laughing as we got dumped on. It amused me so much, I was so tickled and giggling. As soon as we got into the woods and headed back down the trail, it changed back into rain really quickly. It's amazing what a little elevation gain will do. We probably climbed about 300' in that push. So fun so fun. And then the sun came out for the rest of the day! So beautiful.
I finished my laundry and cooked Josh steak and veggies with rice for dinner, by his request, and enjoyed a few bites myself but mostly indulged in raisin cardamom bread we had picked up at the farmers market on saturday along with tea and hand-whipped whipped cream, with vanilla and the tiniest sprinkle of sugar, a favorite nighttime treat lately that staves off the munchies. But I did hit a wall with cleaning and decorating - my room still needs some tlc and my laundry needs more folding, and the floors need some love and the kitchen could use a scrubbing at this point, though I did get the stove really good this morning. I bragged to Josh about the gleaming porcelain and said maybe I was ready to have a real kitchen, but he's not receptive to the idea right now as the stock market is shaky and he feels insecure financially at the moment. I understand, it's okay, I'm happy wherever. He has responded so positively to the added attention and time spent together, it's so reassuring to see him so happy, he just glows.
I am seeing finley tonight, so hopefully that won't dampen his spirits too much, sigh.
Derek is still in the hospital, and my heart is hurting over him, erf.
K need to do a little bit of work and then try to clean and decorate, some. I am tempted to put off errands for another day but I really should pick up some food at least. We run out of fruit so fast, I swear Josh is part fruit bat lol.
