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When will the betrayal and cheating stop knocking the wind out of me with a sick, paralyzing nausea every time I remember.

It’s been over a year since “Myrrh” began to admit to the atrocities he committed over the four years of our relationship/friendship.

It still drives me to sudden choking sobs on street corners.

I just never dreamed anyone would ever treat me that badly. (Especially not someone I’d grown to love, and trust, who claimed to love me, for years.)

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My favorite response to my recent post about memories of betrayal and cheating (and lies lies lies) from the bookface:

Fiora Starchild Wolf I've been there..all too recently, I'm afraid. It DOES take time! It's a form of PTSD almost. You can't control the triggers, and it will take time before your reaction to those triggers softens. Betrayal of trust with someone who you've loved and invested your life can be more intense than death of a loved one, because you can't know what was "real" and what was a lie. It makes you wonder what, if any, of the relationship was real. It makes you question your own perceptions, intuitions, and loveworthiness. And every single thing, even the beautiful things, about the relationship, then end up getting compared with the now known betrayals. Be gentle with yourself.

So true, so true.

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