prickles.

got stung by an especially feisty nettle! thought I was immune. not all nettles are created equal! I scorched them in retaliation. so delicious. with eggs from Wild Harvest and feta from Fraga Farms, the only organic goat dairy I know of that lets babies stay with their moms. Where I plan to goat-sit soon. my whole left side is delightfully tingly nau, from that one finger prick <3

it doesn't hurt. it switched from pain to tingles after a couple of minutes. i feel blessed.

this is my first meal today, after going to bed last night without dinner. depression wreaks havoc on my appetite.

food kindnesses.

Got desperate enough at the farmers market today to try my old food stamp card. I know they let you carry over balances, but I didn't know for how long, and my card was from last year. Got declined as invalid. Not the end of the world; there was maybe a four dollar balance on it. But those dollars get doubled at the markets (up to ten). Sad I didn't use them sooner but that's okay.

A sweet silver haired lady approached me a couple minutes later at a vegetable vendor and gave me her ten doubled food tickets. "They're for you," she insisted when I tried to make sure she didn't need them for herself.

It's hard not to start crying in the middle of the market when stuff like that happens.

Bought extra mushrooms, and a mushroom tamale with 3 sisters mixtamal, from Sara.

<3

emotional abuse.

nothing means anything.