Holy shit she's eating dry food again.

Yay, I can sleep now.

Thanks so much for the kind thoughts and words. :)

Erf, okay, Willow stopped throwing up several hours ago but still won't touch food and is very hunched over and loafing. She has had a few sips of water, which is extremely encouraging.

I am going to walk to the store and get her some trashy yummy cat food to put some antacid in and see if she eats a little. A problem with kidney-failure cats is that they get upset stomachs so don't want to eat, but having an empty stomach makes them more nauseated. So, trying to get her to eat is my next priority, though I don't want to force it and make her more sick. Trying to go gently here.

If she won't touch the food, I'll give her vet a call.

I'm glad she decided to do this on a holiday so I didn't have to call in sick to work because of her.

Sigh.

She is seeking out sunbeams and talking to me a little, which is very very good.

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*worried*

Stayed home sick today. Had a miserable sore throat, headache, fatigue. I learned a long time ago that going to my particular job while sick is never, ever worth it.

Slept in late, gargled with salt water, took some asperin and tylenol, fed myself good food, went to coffee with Myrrh mid-day, stayed cool, did a little laundry, some dishes, napped, drank a lot of water, stayed away from sugar and alcohol, cuddled with the kitty, was very nice.

I feel about the same. Slightly more sniffly, less hot, more sand papery throat. Hopefully I'll feel better in the morning and will be able to go back to werk.

Glad it's so warm. Could walk around naked at midnight, perfectly comfortable. I love it. I cherish our brief, capricious summers.

I've never seen the sky more blue, and I can't help thinking, "This might be the last hot weekend of the summer; I've got to get out there!" So, time to get up, take some cold medicine, find some clothes, shower for the first time in several days (ew), and pretend to be well and enjoy this last bit of shimmering warmth, before the magic of autumn settles in my soul and I am caught up in her colors and Halloween costumes and dark spirits flying through the night.

Summer is still here! I want to revel in her as long as possible.

...

The boys brought over a gifted grill and patio set. (Oh snap, we even have a patio!) Party, anyone?

Edit: Oh damn I almost died in the shower. I think I'm getting ahead of myself, heh. Breathe, sera. Relax.

Starting to feel slightly better. The cough is less painful and more phlegmy. The throat hurts but isn't on fire. Head hurts but not in that embedded-icepick way. Appetite slowly returning. (Reading about all the delicious food in Rome and tear-inducingly delicious pizza in Naples is probably helping.)

I realized yesterday that I had actually been sick for two weeks or more, and it finally broke into this, after hanging on for so long. Instead of admonishing myself for getting sick, I should be praising myself for fighting off such a nasty bug for such a long time before succumbing. I tried my darndest, heh.

It's kind of nice to just lie in bed and read.

It'll be nice to get into physical therapy and exercising again. My hip hurts so much, but at least I know that it is possible for it to stop hurting. I think. Gotta give it another shot.

omg so sick. Can't help asking what I did to deserve the suffering. I know that's a meaningless question, though. I always think of death when in a lot of pain - this time, pondering what it means to no longer exist in time or space. my past will exist. Will I somehow stay there, with it? will memories be all that's left of me, until those slowly evaporate into dust?

Part of me wants to exclaim to everyone, 'please, be kind to yourself. you will suffer enough in this world. treat yourself well, embrace happiness, embrace wellness and high spirits, know that you deserve it. it is fleeting and not to be taken for granted.'

It's 90°, woot! My throat still hurts a lot, so I'm taking it easy.

This makes me smile - it's the look on the kitty's face, soooo happy, hehe.