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Jan. 31st, 2018
can't even donate.
Jan. 31st, 2018 04:34 pmDo you want to donate? Donate today? Donate? Donate? DONATE?
It feels like it is unbearably expensive to live in this country because everywhere I turn someone is asking me to donate to something or someone. And they are all worthy causes. Because the taxes we pay don't go for the things they should go for. Basic health care and social services. People need to scrape and beg to stay alive or healthy, or for things that should be a given, like unexpected pet bills, or the barest minimum of the ability to creatively express themselves (donate so I can buy an instrument/paint/craft this thing I'm passionate about?).
It is all the more overwhelming when I myself am barely scraping by, because all of my peers are smart and poor with wonderful ideas and their own health problems and sick animals.
Just feeling the stress of it all, today, because I am very sick, and my cat is very sick, and I could never ask anyone to kickstart my gofundme indiegogo sharewithcare patreon whateverthefuck. I just can't.
I turned down the chance to "round up" fifty cents at the coop grocers for a local fast food chain union because I genuinely need those quarters for laundry today. And I feel wildly guilty about it. Even though I rounded up every other time they asked.
just tired and grumpy and feeling very lost without my cat (he's at the vet on IV fluids for the day).
It feels like it is unbearably expensive to live in this country because everywhere I turn someone is asking me to donate to something or someone. And they are all worthy causes. Because the taxes we pay don't go for the things they should go for. Basic health care and social services. People need to scrape and beg to stay alive or healthy, or for things that should be a given, like unexpected pet bills, or the barest minimum of the ability to creatively express themselves (donate so I can buy an instrument/paint/craft this thing I'm passionate about?).
It is all the more overwhelming when I myself am barely scraping by, because all of my peers are smart and poor with wonderful ideas and their own health problems and sick animals.
Just feeling the stress of it all, today, because I am very sick, and my cat is very sick, and I could never ask anyone to kickstart my gofundme indiegogo sharewithcare patreon whateverthefuck. I just can't.
I turned down the chance to "round up" fifty cents at the coop grocers for a local fast food chain union because I genuinely need those quarters for laundry today. And I feel wildly guilty about it. Even though I rounded up every other time they asked.
just tired and grumpy and feeling very lost without my cat (he's at the vet on IV fluids for the day).