dance or no dance

erf, hard day of work started in tears. had a tummy ache aaallllll day, it's still here. not sure if i can dance tonight. a month ago kizomba night was the best thing that happened to me in a really long time. but i dunno now. it's raining. i have the sweetest kitty on my lap, purring up a storm. will pet purry kitty for a half hour or so and see how i feel. sigh.

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ugh, i want to dance, but i'm sooooooo tired.

droopyfae

just gunna hafta skip dance tonight, my eyes are too heavy. so sad. hopefully might get a dance or two on Saturday at Eric's thing? If I'm up for it by then.

I just haven't been sleeping. sux.

a kind of flow.

The dancer I met and danced with the most at Kizomba last month texted me about tonight after I'd decided not to go, and I decided to rally, and went, and it was fun even though I was tired and my tummy hurt, and I started bleeding at the venue. So that all makes sense now, the fatigue and bloating and overall blahs. I'm glad I went! Marta was there, she is SO NICE omg, and I met a new younger dancer named Lacy who wore an Ariana-esque ponytail that I coveted, she's really really pretty. Those eyes. And such a soft sweetness about her, no pretentiousness. I wonder if Tyler would like her. (She's very young.)

Ow cramps.

Oh I miss dancing.

Tonight really made me miss blues. And Finley. I think I am finally back to an okay headspace about him, after being angry for a bit. He sent me a sweet text the other day and I ignored it. I don't like that he texts me once every two weeks, maximum. But who am I to complain if I refuse to communicate my feelings to him.