my head still hurts.

wanted to go dancing tonight, but our cases are still so high, and they not only don't check for vaccination status at that venue, but closed the large open air space downstairs, which was the only place with any airflow, "due to slow season," so I really can't justify going at all. ah well, I will wait.

was watching some of Elf last night for comfort while cat sitting my brother's kittens, and that carefree feeling of just, people out in the world together, it just hurt to watch.

Oregon has one of the most abysmal records of deaths of people in long term care. over 50% of our covid deaths have been from these facilities. Like the one my mom was in. It turns out the lock down they put into place the first year of the virus was not only inhumane but also illegal. These are people's legal homes, their residence, and you can't ban people from having visitation with their own loved ones in their own homes. But only now is that lawsuit going through and Oregon has removed this ban on visitation. it's just gruesome, here. I love my home city, but I don't want to grow old, here. In a place that doesn't care about their elderly whatsoever. I'm grateful for NPR's reporting on it, but this is only the second report I've heard on it since pandemic, and it's a much bigger issue than that. Utterly ignored.

Nobody cares, here.

It makes me want to go into long term care, myself. To provide better care for them.

It's so sweet of my neice to have done this.

(I also want to provide different care along with my hair sparkles. I want to offer massage or facials. I want to offer real healing. But I don't want to spend ten grand getting certified to do it. I think it's inhumane that there is such a financial restraint on pursuing these practices. Who really gets hurt from massage or gentle skin care. It's a racket and it's really sad. Many states don't require any licensing for massage I should maybe pick one of those and just get out of here. I'm scared and angry and I miss my mom.)

i'm so burnt out from this virus.

i heard about that report about the new influenza strain that's tearing through poultry and has killed hundreds of people. so far there is no human to human transmission. Yet.

I am so. tired.

I want to cancel all of my work tomorrow. But I won't.

I will try to heal, today.

* Take care of some orders
* So neglected paperwork/phone calls to pay some bills that won't process online for some reason
* walk the cat
* ride up to rocky butte
* get some groceries
* bake more cookies and deliver them to friends. I looked up how to melt chocolate for dipping, so that giant dark chocolate bar my brother gave me can get some use.

Part of me just wants to sleep all day.

starsox

I really love my new sox, just wanted to post about it.

I couldn't get a good photo because Josh kept walking in and interrupting me. It's like he has some sort of sixth sense about the one moment when I don't want him in my room. But anyway, here's what I could get while he was standing there telling me about his most recent work meeting. He saw me taking pictures and just kept rambling, lol.