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my head hurts.
Aug. 3rd, 2022 05:49 pmgave myself a migraine trying to figure out tiktok. i hate that platform. i hate that the only way to curate your feed is to scroll through what they throw at you aimlessly for hours, skipping or liking shit until the machine learning gets an idea of what to send you - can i just tell you who i want to follow and what i want to see? no. what a waste of time and energy. there is no way to sync up music to a video, there's no time ticker or way to scroll through to the part of the video i would need the sound clip to start at. but if you use your own recording of the same exact song, it gets removed for copyright infringement. which, i don't want to infringe on anyone but i'm just dancing to a song, it's not like i'm trying to make a commercial to sell someone something, jeeeeeez. i hate social media craziness so so much. i only just figured out instagram stories and reels. i am not going back to tiktok anytime soon. i do love the filters and effects, those are wild and fun to see, but i have no use for them really. i'm an old lady. according to the culture i am in, anyway.
(oh also, i figured out that tiktok is the source of everyone self-diagnosing as ADHD when really what they are is dealing with their brains being fucked up by social media platforms. I've seen real ADHD, my brother has it extremely severely and it still to this day makes it really, really difficult for him to live any sort of normal life. forgetting a number is not ADHD. ADHD is when someone who is standing right next to you just asked you a question and you entirely forgot to answer because your phone bleeped at you and you are now endlessly doomscrolling. "Oh Shiny" is not ADHD. That's screen bombardment/constant overstimulation/oversaturation of useless but colorful information.)
avoided housework all day that is so desperately needed. my new deal i just made with myself is that if i sweep and mop the floors, i can go get ice cream. which will immediately kill all the progress i've tried to make today to get rid of my perimenopause belly bloat. so. maybe if i don't do the floors i'll be happier, ha.
this is why i shouldn't try to reward myself with food.
lunar just has a bacterial infection. i've already pilled him. he did so great at the vet, i'm so proud of him. he seems to be gaining trust and a sense of security, it's nice to see.
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need to refocus my vibrational energy deeper and darker. darkness is not negativity. people conflate these to their peril. we need more darkness and depth and less of this superficial floaty lightness.
(oh also, i figured out that tiktok is the source of everyone self-diagnosing as ADHD when really what they are is dealing with their brains being fucked up by social media platforms. I've seen real ADHD, my brother has it extremely severely and it still to this day makes it really, really difficult for him to live any sort of normal life. forgetting a number is not ADHD. ADHD is when someone who is standing right next to you just asked you a question and you entirely forgot to answer because your phone bleeped at you and you are now endlessly doomscrolling. "Oh Shiny" is not ADHD. That's screen bombardment/constant overstimulation/oversaturation of useless but colorful information.)
avoided housework all day that is so desperately needed. my new deal i just made with myself is that if i sweep and mop the floors, i can go get ice cream. which will immediately kill all the progress i've tried to make today to get rid of my perimenopause belly bloat. so. maybe if i don't do the floors i'll be happier, ha.
this is why i shouldn't try to reward myself with food.
lunar just has a bacterial infection. i've already pilled him. he did so great at the vet, i'm so proud of him. he seems to be gaining trust and a sense of security, it's nice to see.
...
need to refocus my vibrational energy deeper and darker. darkness is not negativity. people conflate these to their peril. we need more darkness and depth and less of this superficial floaty lightness.
