broke down and started crying over Lunar and mom this morning.
It's just so hard not feel like I've utterly failed them.
It's hard to lose someone who, in their way, loved me as hard as they possibly could.
cared so much.
were so attached. thought of me so often and so fondly.
I miss them. Too much to bear, sometimes.
..
put on a different skirt than usual. feeling grey, this morning, instead of my usual forest tones.
maybe I won't get called pregnant at work today.
(something about my moss skirt seems to make people ask that question I dunno.)
The sky is so beautiful today.
Maybe the mushroom effect is still lingering.
Apparently it can change your brain a little bit. open up to more experience. What is it called. some sort of neurological flexibility that it's supposed to encourage. allowing more synapses to form.
I'll take more colors, sure.
Foraged apple crisp and foraged figs for food, today.
fantasizing about pumpkin pancakes with elderberry compote for dinner.
It's just so hard not feel like I've utterly failed them.
It's hard to lose someone who, in their way, loved me as hard as they possibly could.
cared so much.
were so attached. thought of me so often and so fondly.
I miss them. Too much to bear, sometimes.
..
put on a different skirt than usual. feeling grey, this morning, instead of my usual forest tones.
maybe I won't get called pregnant at work today.
(something about my moss skirt seems to make people ask that question I dunno.)
The sky is so beautiful today.
Maybe the mushroom effect is still lingering.
Apparently it can change your brain a little bit. open up to more experience. What is it called. some sort of neurological flexibility that it's supposed to encourage. allowing more synapses to form.
I'll take more colors, sure.
Foraged apple crisp and foraged figs for food, today.
fantasizing about pumpkin pancakes with elderberry compote for dinner.