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sunday run day
Dec. 11th, 2022 03:51 pmfresh delicious afternoon coffee with silk (soy) eggnog. such a treat on a cold day.
still chilled from running with Josh today - i was very warm during, but then I had to wait around for him to finish his workout, and then wait around for him to get a bagel sandwich, and then wait around for him to get snacks at another shop, and I froze and haven't taken my coat or hat off since i got home two hours again and i'm huddled at my desk next to the heat vent, grateful that the boiler came back on mysteriously early today.
made myself a bowl of sliced apples with peanut butter sprinkled with goji berries and hemp seeds, after my lunch of avocado toast with two fried eggs topped with freshly grated turmeric and ginger with lemon salt and pepper. also had tomato basil bone broth and a small slice of pumpkin pie, this one i made with red kuri squash so it's especially creamy and so bright orange. i will get buttercup pumpkin next time.
finally tried the pandan waffle at the Ca Phe, omg such a sweet soft perfect treat.
been having the loveliest indulgences, lately. rainforest crisps crackers with herbed goat cheese yesterday on my way to the holiday ice dance session, which was a lot of fun (until Barb fell and hit her head, she had her helmet on but it still is awful when this happens and she falls a LOT - I have some PTSD from witnessing severe head injuries from falls on the ice so I get really rattled when this happens but it was right at the end of the session so I just got off the ice after). It was a beautiful session anyway, such a good time. I stayed upright which was the goal.
A few of us went to the Margarita Factory after and I had a "best in town" Margarita - I can't argue with the name, and some wonderful street tacos. unfortunately because of the alcohol and the fact that there are endless trays of chips on every table, i made myself ill on way too many corn chips. I just have no self-control when it comes to food that is sitting in front of me, especially salty crunchy food. This is why I rarely eat out and most of my food at home is medicinal.
I've had the most magical week, but also some sads and some stress. Alex is hosting alt tango tonight at Berretin and I must go, but that means I must be in the shower by 5pm and it's already 4pm, and I'm really upset at the state of my bedroom and office right now, it's never been this bad, it's entirely nonfunctional.
This is because I CAN'T SLEEP. My perimenopause symptoms wake me up constantly, I can't sleep at all. Plus there was some weird banging at the RV that lives outside of our apartment All. Night. Long. Bang. Bang bang. Bang. Like someone pounding on something but why were they awake pounding for the entire night? So bizarre.
Anyway, I've resolved to see a doctor who will prescribe me hormone replacement therapy since my GP refuses, after doing research the benefits FAR outweigh the risks, especially for a healthy active athlete.
I just need to find the doctor and schedule the appt. This needs to happen ASAP. My poor body. My poor brain. I can't function like this without sleep.
I will write about the dancing that happened last night in my next post since it's too personal to share unlocked and I think this entry is okay as-is, maybe.
being 47 is really hard.
holidays are painful.
but i'm doing my best to have a good time and enjoy everything.
evening coffee helps.
missed my tiny window of possibility for seeing my brother at the christian coffee shop where he has crushes on all the adolescent baristas but that's okay. i love him but our interests and priorities are totally opposite and it makes it really difficult to spend time with him, sometimes. he cares about tv/movies, junk food, girls less than half my age (he's 58), work, and God. I don't care about any of those things (except maybe the Wednesday show rn).
still chilled from running with Josh today - i was very warm during, but then I had to wait around for him to finish his workout, and then wait around for him to get a bagel sandwich, and then wait around for him to get snacks at another shop, and I froze and haven't taken my coat or hat off since i got home two hours again and i'm huddled at my desk next to the heat vent, grateful that the boiler came back on mysteriously early today.
made myself a bowl of sliced apples with peanut butter sprinkled with goji berries and hemp seeds, after my lunch of avocado toast with two fried eggs topped with freshly grated turmeric and ginger with lemon salt and pepper. also had tomato basil bone broth and a small slice of pumpkin pie, this one i made with red kuri squash so it's especially creamy and so bright orange. i will get buttercup pumpkin next time.
finally tried the pandan waffle at the Ca Phe, omg such a sweet soft perfect treat.
been having the loveliest indulgences, lately. rainforest crisps crackers with herbed goat cheese yesterday on my way to the holiday ice dance session, which was a lot of fun (until Barb fell and hit her head, she had her helmet on but it still is awful when this happens and she falls a LOT - I have some PTSD from witnessing severe head injuries from falls on the ice so I get really rattled when this happens but it was right at the end of the session so I just got off the ice after). It was a beautiful session anyway, such a good time. I stayed upright which was the goal.
A few of us went to the Margarita Factory after and I had a "best in town" Margarita - I can't argue with the name, and some wonderful street tacos. unfortunately because of the alcohol and the fact that there are endless trays of chips on every table, i made myself ill on way too many corn chips. I just have no self-control when it comes to food that is sitting in front of me, especially salty crunchy food. This is why I rarely eat out and most of my food at home is medicinal.
I've had the most magical week, but also some sads and some stress. Alex is hosting alt tango tonight at Berretin and I must go, but that means I must be in the shower by 5pm and it's already 4pm, and I'm really upset at the state of my bedroom and office right now, it's never been this bad, it's entirely nonfunctional.
This is because I CAN'T SLEEP. My perimenopause symptoms wake me up constantly, I can't sleep at all. Plus there was some weird banging at the RV that lives outside of our apartment All. Night. Long. Bang. Bang bang. Bang. Like someone pounding on something but why were they awake pounding for the entire night? So bizarre.
Anyway, I've resolved to see a doctor who will prescribe me hormone replacement therapy since my GP refuses, after doing research the benefits FAR outweigh the risks, especially for a healthy active athlete.
I just need to find the doctor and schedule the appt. This needs to happen ASAP. My poor body. My poor brain. I can't function like this without sleep.
I will write about the dancing that happened last night in my next post since it's too personal to share unlocked and I think this entry is okay as-is, maybe.
being 47 is really hard.
holidays are painful.
but i'm doing my best to have a good time and enjoy everything.
evening coffee helps.
missed my tiny window of possibility for seeing my brother at the christian coffee shop where he has crushes on all the adolescent baristas but that's okay. i love him but our interests and priorities are totally opposite and it makes it really difficult to spend time with him, sometimes. he cares about tv/movies, junk food, girls less than half my age (he's 58), work, and God. I don't care about any of those things (except maybe the Wednesday show rn).
