feeling a bit more cheerful nau

so much for fasting today! so hungry omg. already had bone broth, banana, cookies, latte, avocado toast with an egg, an orange, and i want to eat everything in the fridge omg.

had fun on silks at least. everything is so much harder, but, i can still do a pullup, so that's something.

did i mention i made a giant bowl of whipped cream last night and ate half of it - just out of the bowl with a spoon lol. (i want more.) there is something magical about homemade whipped cream. i have a hand crank whisk for such things so it took me a good fifteen minutes to get it whipped up. totally worth it. it has stiff fluffy beautiful peaks and just a dash of sugar. (i'm more in it for the fat lol. nomnomnom)

i want to bake more gingerbread cookies. going for that, now, methinks.

my car is back and all clean. time to dirty her up again lol - the guys at the detail shop loved the cookies, yay - so did the circus kids who host my silks drop-ins :)

josh's pear tart is also complete magic. so cheesy!

so happy nau.

I can buy myself flowers

I feel so much better after running around giving away cookies. I gave them to Josh mostly, the rock climbing kids, the circus kids, the guys who cleaned my car, my baristas, and my friends Gregory, and Andrea and Adam.

They are gluten free and vegan and that last batch definitely had too much molasses but what can you do. Just make another batch and gift some more! Muwaaaahahahaa.

I ate a bunch more cookies too oops. So much for trying to restrict calories, today. I'll try again tomorrow.

having some rice and lentils and hemps seeds to balance out the sugar a bit, might watch an episode of Love Between Fairy and Devil. I'm enjoying the dragon character (Shangque) so much.

I'm glad Josh has made a point not to celebrate this day, his idea is that we should love each other enough to show it every day, not to save up and put pressure on some arbitrary day. While I do still wish I had guys in my life who brought me chocolate and flowers, I've had that phase in my life and I'm honestly happier giving than receiving.

Still, would not have said no to flowers and chocolate, haha.

Andrea gave me a belated christmas present that includes a beautiful Frog's Breath Nightmare Before Christmas candle, a pair of Jack and Sally Nightmare before Christmas wine glasses, a holiday coffee pouch, and two adorable wool dryer balls. She spoils me! I am delight.

It's okay that I didn't get chocolate or flowers, I bought myself tulips last week (after my hellish blood draw) and they are still lovely, and we have more chocolate than we need already, all is well.

I am happy, tonight.