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so much beauty and heartwrenching horror
Jun. 23rd, 2023 06:49 pmhome from werk, ver' tahrd, attending a nerdy burlesque (nerdlesque) event tonight and I can't even fathom going back out into the world, let alone to a show, erf. but i want to support my friends who are fundraising and performing. I don't know why I don't really like burlesque - I love creativity, I love women's bodies, I love playfulness and satire, I have all of the skills to do what they are doing, since I'm a trained dancer and know how to create costumes and perform choreographed numbers to music thanks to ice skating, but something about the combination just does not appeal? Even though I love all the people? I prefer bellydance or any other form of dance, including stripping actually. trying to find some nourishment and somehow magically some sort of second wind.
Kara was really poorly treated in the hospital, but survived and is being discharged tonight, hopefully. I feel so terrible for what she's going through. As if having cancer isn't bad enough, they made so many mistakes this week while she was trying to recover from reactions to her trial medications. I had a customer make me home made bone broth soup, but I feel like she and her husband need it more than I do. i also got a half pint of freshly picked raspberries from another customer's yard and want to gift those, too, and/or some of the mulberries I picked on the way home from work tonight. I wish I could just give them $100 cash or something but I know Kara wouldn't want that - she wouldn't want any of it but this is more about Charles than her at this point, he is literally saving her life right now. If he hadn't advocated for her and pushed for care she probably would not be alive right now. It does not help that there is a nurses' strike. I feel terrible about it. The conditions they work in sound bad, but this happening to Kara is just awful and it makes me hurt all over to think about.
I need to stop thinking about it.
Maybe I can at least drop off soup and berries.
I hate it when my friends are dying. it is the absolute worst.
Kara was really poorly treated in the hospital, but survived and is being discharged tonight, hopefully. I feel so terrible for what she's going through. As if having cancer isn't bad enough, they made so many mistakes this week while she was trying to recover from reactions to her trial medications. I had a customer make me home made bone broth soup, but I feel like she and her husband need it more than I do. i also got a half pint of freshly picked raspberries from another customer's yard and want to gift those, too, and/or some of the mulberries I picked on the way home from work tonight. I wish I could just give them $100 cash or something but I know Kara wouldn't want that - she wouldn't want any of it but this is more about Charles than her at this point, he is literally saving her life right now. If he hadn't advocated for her and pushed for care she probably would not be alive right now. It does not help that there is a nurses' strike. I feel terrible about it. The conditions they work in sound bad, but this happening to Kara is just awful and it makes me hurt all over to think about.
I need to stop thinking about it.
Maybe I can at least drop off soup and berries.
I hate it when my friends are dying. it is the absolute worst.
