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sleepy gripes on a beautiful day
Nov. 3rd, 2023 05:58 pmjust hit a massive wall of sleepy.
I try not to be political online, but CEASEFIRE NOW. God.
Also, trans women are women. Gender is a social construct. Sex is a biological trait with occasionally non-binary results that should be accommodated into culture but we fail.
If someone tries to declare that a man can't become a woman, it's not unlike saying a Lutheran can't convert to Catholicism.
(Looking at my brother. Who will never see this but I feel better, anyway. He's in the process of converting - he only wants to become Catholic to get with a girl, by the way - and he thinks trans and queer folk and pronouns and such are the cause of all this city's ills. The hypocrisy of christianity in this culture consistently baffles me.)
I should write about Halloween. But not in this entry, Halloween is too sacred to be tainted by such petty frustrations.
The last two days have been especially beautiful, too. Lucky for me since I have full work days tomorrow and Sunday, and then four more sparkle days right after that next week and all next weekend too, uuugghhhh. The same thing the following week, and then two full days of sparkles after Thanksgiving. It's chaos for the rest of the month. But at least I'll have income, hopefully. I hope my body can take all the work, I actually broke down and took half a vicodin last night. (I have 1.5 left.) this is not sustainable. I am attempting some dietary changes, since I can't fix my sleep - there is just no way to have any quiet at night, here. I am consistently awakened by all sorts of noise and there's nothing I can do about it, and it is slowly degrading my health and sanity to the point that I kind of want to quit my job and run away to the forest and never return. at least it is quiet and dark there, at night. I've got to fix my sleep, nothing else will work right if I can't fix that. Josh wants to move to a different noisy apartment complex near a new rock gym and I'm just desperate to get out of the city altogether, at this point. But perhaps we could find a quiet house to rent somewhere in that area, if that would appease him, I don't know. I need to start looking.
I try not to be political online, but CEASEFIRE NOW. God.
Also, trans women are women. Gender is a social construct. Sex is a biological trait with occasionally non-binary results that should be accommodated into culture but we fail.
If someone tries to declare that a man can't become a woman, it's not unlike saying a Lutheran can't convert to Catholicism.
(Looking at my brother. Who will never see this but I feel better, anyway. He's in the process of converting - he only wants to become Catholic to get with a girl, by the way - and he thinks trans and queer folk and pronouns and such are the cause of all this city's ills. The hypocrisy of christianity in this culture consistently baffles me.)
I should write about Halloween. But not in this entry, Halloween is too sacred to be tainted by such petty frustrations.
The last two days have been especially beautiful, too. Lucky for me since I have full work days tomorrow and Sunday, and then four more sparkle days right after that next week and all next weekend too, uuugghhhh. The same thing the following week, and then two full days of sparkles after Thanksgiving. It's chaos for the rest of the month. But at least I'll have income, hopefully. I hope my body can take all the work, I actually broke down and took half a vicodin last night. (I have 1.5 left.) this is not sustainable. I am attempting some dietary changes, since I can't fix my sleep - there is just no way to have any quiet at night, here. I am consistently awakened by all sorts of noise and there's nothing I can do about it, and it is slowly degrading my health and sanity to the point that I kind of want to quit my job and run away to the forest and never return. at least it is quiet and dark there, at night. I've got to fix my sleep, nothing else will work right if I can't fix that. Josh wants to move to a different noisy apartment complex near a new rock gym and I'm just desperate to get out of the city altogether, at this point. But perhaps we could find a quiet house to rent somewhere in that area, if that would appease him, I don't know. I need to start looking.
