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Therapy sesh notes
Nov. 21st, 2023 09:12 amJust need to get down a couple thoughts.
What do I neeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeed.
I need to feel accepted for who I am as I am right now. This is something Josh gives me. But I want it from Tyler, I desperately want it from Finley, I want it from Timo, I want it from Amanda and Cynthia and everyone I love.
But most of all I think what I need is to have this from and for myself.
I'm exhausted with constantly trying to make myself better and constantly feeling like I'm not enough or I'm too annoying or I'm irritating or boring or whatever.
Maybe there's part of me that wants to be cared for the way I care for others. (But only by certain people?)
I dunno.
Need to get dressed and packed up and go meet up with Gregory. Excited to get out to the gorge with him, should get moving. It'll be a pretty day, I'm excited to get out there.
Leaving my ears on lol. (I haven't taken them off since Sunday when I worked in them all day.)
Need to visit my step-dad and his gf again tonight. I understand her not wanting to go to the ER and I don't want her to go, but she can't get out of bed on her own and that's not sustainable. I will go do that one more time, and then we're going to have to figure something else out, if we can't get any caretaker of any sort to come to them. erf.
What do I neeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeed.
I need to feel accepted for who I am as I am right now. This is something Josh gives me. But I want it from Tyler, I desperately want it from Finley, I want it from Timo, I want it from Amanda and Cynthia and everyone I love.
But most of all I think what I need is to have this from and for myself.
I'm exhausted with constantly trying to make myself better and constantly feeling like I'm not enough or I'm too annoying or I'm irritating or boring or whatever.
Maybe there's part of me that wants to be cared for the way I care for others. (But only by certain people?)
I dunno.
Need to get dressed and packed up and go meet up with Gregory. Excited to get out to the gorge with him, should get moving. It'll be a pretty day, I'm excited to get out there.
Leaving my ears on lol. (I haven't taken them off since Sunday when I worked in them all day.)
Need to visit my step-dad and his gf again tonight. I understand her not wanting to go to the ER and I don't want her to go, but she can't get out of bed on her own and that's not sustainable. I will go do that one more time, and then we're going to have to figure something else out, if we can't get any caretaker of any sort to come to them. erf.
