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serafaeryhave not done well emotionally, today. between the unimaginable heat we just experienced and my brother selling his house, which is the only home i know, continued pandemic stress, unstable work, my broken skate and continued lack of silks rig (the outdoor one is only 12' and only works when the weather cooperates), unstable friendships as vaccinated people still avoid gathering/socializing, a sick cat, inability to handle the emotional work of planning my mother's celebration/memorial, and a very hot apartment, it's been stressful and so, so sad. i'm cared for and privileged as heck, my life is wonderful, i will feel better eventually. it's okay to not have a house in the family. but it's, on top of everything else, so painful for me to let go. i love that house so much. it was a safe place to land after experiencing houselessness for 2 months in 2017. it was such comfort. i wish i had the resources to keep it for myself, somehow.
Kitty got sick today but he came and told me before it happened so I was able to grab a towel and keep it from making a mess. He was spooked for a minute and then when he realized I wasn't mad at him, was so, so happy and affectionate. It makes me wonder if his illness is why he was abandoned. Poor love. When I was crying a while ago he came to check on me and bunted me a lot. He knows when I'm sad and helps me. It's really nice.
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The heat wasn't just "record-breaking" or "unprecedented." That is downplaying the severity of what happened. Our highest temp before this week was 107, and that happened twice ever in recorded history, once 40 years ago, and again 55 years ago, in late July/early August. We smashed that record by 9 degrees, not just one or two, in JUNE. It was 112 and 116 here on Sunday and Monday, respectively.
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was literally screaming whenever the sun hit me during the period between 4-7pm on Monday when we were in the 113-116 degree range, outdoors like idiots, and couldn't understand those who were walking around like normal, silent. are they all from death valley, california? how were they so calm? my phone stopped working "internal battery temperature too high"
Kitty got sick today but he came and told me before it happened so I was able to grab a towel and keep it from making a mess. He was spooked for a minute and then when he realized I wasn't mad at him, was so, so happy and affectionate. It makes me wonder if his illness is why he was abandoned. Poor love. When I was crying a while ago he came to check on me and bunted me a lot. He knows when I'm sad and helps me. It's really nice.
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The heat wasn't just "record-breaking" or "unprecedented." That is downplaying the severity of what happened. Our highest temp before this week was 107, and that happened twice ever in recorded history, once 40 years ago, and again 55 years ago, in late July/early August. We smashed that record by 9 degrees, not just one or two, in JUNE. It was 112 and 116 here on Sunday and Monday, respectively.
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was literally screaming whenever the sun hit me during the period between 4-7pm on Monday when we were in the 113-116 degree range, outdoors like idiots, and couldn't understand those who were walking around like normal, silent. are they all from death valley, california? how were they so calm? my phone stopped working "internal battery temperature too high"
