my skating is just kinda good
Nov. 28th, 2022 09:40 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
serafaeryIt's not ADD, it's an HSP trying to deal with a long history of childhood and adult trauma (and 6 ACEs) that leaves me chronically overstimulated, overwhelmed, disregulated, and fighting for any engagement of my prefrontal cortex all. the. time.
guy in a pizza rat costume dragging a comically large slice of pizza up the subway stairs kinda takes the edge off.
Skating was tough this morning. My vertigo has returned, though not as bad, it did really mess up my spins on the ice today. Part of me wonders if it's my antibodies ramped up in response to being exposed to Josh's Covid infection. He's still really sick. I made him a fancy dinner tonight, not exactly on purpose. I had promised my brother, who was so ill on Friday that he took himself to the ER, some thanksgiving leftovers. I couldn't bring them Friday because he was sick, and I also hadn't grabbed him enough at Thanksgiving proper, having been focused on my elderly step-dad instead, so today I roasted delicata squash and sweet potatoes, boiled russet potatoes and mixed in cream and butter for mashed potatoes, and cooked a stovetop stuffing of yellow onion and celery with chopped up dinner rolls and poultry seasoning and salt and pepper and butter - and when I had everything ready to go and messaged him, he was in Seattle for work.
So, I'm starting to think these ER visits are just another ploy for attention, or something?
I don't know.
My brother had entirely forgotten that during last night's phone call I'd offered to bring him a thanksgiving dinner, tonight, so he called me in a panic when I texted asking if he was home tonight, going, "what's the matter??! What's going on?!!"
Uhhh, I just wanted to bring you the dinner I'd offered to bring over?
"Oh. Right! I'm in Seattle."
Jeezus.
Humans.
THAT is ADD.
That is not what I have.
I'm just scatterbrained and trying to do too much at once all of the time.
Anyway. I made Josh a fancy Thanksgiving meal of roasted veggies with mashed potatoes and stuffing and also some seared kale with onions and mushrooms, along with turkey and turkey bone broth which is currently chilling. I need to go put everything away. I worked super hard on the food and he really enjoyed it, thankfully, since my brother isn't here to.
I hope the bone broth is healing for him. I could use the nourishment too, tbh. I did have some kale and delicata and a small spoonful of the stuffing and mashed potatoes just to taste test. SO YUMMY.
I'm glad I walked with Cynthia today.
I'll do better with food tomorrow.
I miss Finley but haven't been able to bring myself to text any of my friends, today. I don't feel good enough for friends. Or something.
Working on it.
The books are entertaining, anyway. Obelisk Gate is dark af, damn.
I'll do silks tomorrow.
Oh, I meant to say - it was way cute, at the rink this morning, a girl from Disney on Ice was practicing, and I noticed only once out of the corner of my eye that she was doing some of the footwork I was working on - I figured probably just a coincidence, I was courted by ice show professionals enough times that I learned show footwork in my teens. Ice Capades even owned one of the local rinks for a short while, so yeah I have a little bit of show skater training in my background, not just the competitive training most skaters get, unless they purposefully take the show skater route.
Because the public session skaters were a little wild today, I had to put my phone far away in a corner and just left the video running instead of trying to take clips of each thing I wanted to record, so I just left it recording and ran through some moves.
Watching this 4 minute video, I saw the Disney on Ice girl mimicking a bunch of my footwork - the mohawk sequences, the quick turns, the 3-turn brush-outs, all of it. And then she even copied my falling leaf jumps. Soooooo adorable. A little pro skater copying an old lady. Made me feel legit, yanno? Josh reminds me slyly, "You know what Oscar Wilde said."
"Imitation is the sincerest form of flattery...
...that mediocrity can pay to greatness."
(People tend to leave out that second half.)
She's a good skater though, it's just a thing that people do in any form of dance - notice what someone else is doing and copy. We all do it. Especially if it's stuff we haven't thought to work on for a while. It's a little lazy but fun. I've had to create my own sequences just to entertain myself, since there's nobody around to copy in this town most of the time. I'm glad I can inspire others, at least once in a while.
guy in a pizza rat costume dragging a comically large slice of pizza up the subway stairs kinda takes the edge off.
Skating was tough this morning. My vertigo has returned, though not as bad, it did really mess up my spins on the ice today. Part of me wonders if it's my antibodies ramped up in response to being exposed to Josh's Covid infection. He's still really sick. I made him a fancy dinner tonight, not exactly on purpose. I had promised my brother, who was so ill on Friday that he took himself to the ER, some thanksgiving leftovers. I couldn't bring them Friday because he was sick, and I also hadn't grabbed him enough at Thanksgiving proper, having been focused on my elderly step-dad instead, so today I roasted delicata squash and sweet potatoes, boiled russet potatoes and mixed in cream and butter for mashed potatoes, and cooked a stovetop stuffing of yellow onion and celery with chopped up dinner rolls and poultry seasoning and salt and pepper and butter - and when I had everything ready to go and messaged him, he was in Seattle for work.
So, I'm starting to think these ER visits are just another ploy for attention, or something?
I don't know.
My brother had entirely forgotten that during last night's phone call I'd offered to bring him a thanksgiving dinner, tonight, so he called me in a panic when I texted asking if he was home tonight, going, "what's the matter??! What's going on?!!"
Uhhh, I just wanted to bring you the dinner I'd offered to bring over?
"Oh. Right! I'm in Seattle."
Jeezus.
Humans.
THAT is ADD.
That is not what I have.
I'm just scatterbrained and trying to do too much at once all of the time.
Anyway. I made Josh a fancy Thanksgiving meal of roasted veggies with mashed potatoes and stuffing and also some seared kale with onions and mushrooms, along with turkey and turkey bone broth which is currently chilling. I need to go put everything away. I worked super hard on the food and he really enjoyed it, thankfully, since my brother isn't here to.
I hope the bone broth is healing for him. I could use the nourishment too, tbh. I did have some kale and delicata and a small spoonful of the stuffing and mashed potatoes just to taste test. SO YUMMY.
I'm glad I walked with Cynthia today.
I'll do better with food tomorrow.
I miss Finley but haven't been able to bring myself to text any of my friends, today. I don't feel good enough for friends. Or something.
Working on it.
The books are entertaining, anyway. Obelisk Gate is dark af, damn.
I'll do silks tomorrow.
Oh, I meant to say - it was way cute, at the rink this morning, a girl from Disney on Ice was practicing, and I noticed only once out of the corner of my eye that she was doing some of the footwork I was working on - I figured probably just a coincidence, I was courted by ice show professionals enough times that I learned show footwork in my teens. Ice Capades even owned one of the local rinks for a short while, so yeah I have a little bit of show skater training in my background, not just the competitive training most skaters get, unless they purposefully take the show skater route.
Because the public session skaters were a little wild today, I had to put my phone far away in a corner and just left the video running instead of trying to take clips of each thing I wanted to record, so I just left it recording and ran through some moves.
Watching this 4 minute video, I saw the Disney on Ice girl mimicking a bunch of my footwork - the mohawk sequences, the quick turns, the 3-turn brush-outs, all of it. And then she even copied my falling leaf jumps. Soooooo adorable. A little pro skater copying an old lady. Made me feel legit, yanno? Josh reminds me slyly, "You know what Oscar Wilde said."
"Imitation is the sincerest form of flattery...
...that mediocrity can pay to greatness."
(People tend to leave out that second half.)
She's a good skater though, it's just a thing that people do in any form of dance - notice what someone else is doing and copy. We all do it. Especially if it's stuff we haven't thought to work on for a while. It's a little lazy but fun. I've had to create my own sequences just to entertain myself, since there's nobody around to copy in this town most of the time. I'm glad I can inspire others, at least once in a while.
