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serafaeryHave a craving for soda bread biscuits, since the weather turned back to cold and grey. orange zest and currants will help with the flagging mood and energy.
Feeling okay. Worked hard today. I upped my hours and my foot hurts but otherwise I'm fine. Will see how it goes tomorrow. I can cut back again in April if it's too much. But I like the additional income.
I did start a little bit on website research last night. It's a wild world out there on the interwebs. (Will not get into stuff I found from competitors but, ugh.) I'll figure something out.
I'd like to treat myself to a facial and some fancy skin enzymes for my 50th birthday, we'll see if I actually go through with it. (I pretty much never do.)
Tired tired.
Will try to go to Coffin tonight. I bought Amanda some balloons. It's her birthday Saturday. we are seeing a circus show together that night.
Josh and I are doing really well. Rosy sunny so in love.
Somehow this morning I managed to do my morning exercises, make coffee for me and matcha for Josh, swept the floors, cleaned Avalanche's litter box, made food for myself and for Josh, took a shower, did all the dishes, made myself an herbal Loki's Kiss tea with my own hand-dried peppermint leaves added in and two scoops of collagen powder as my doctor prescribed, got into my fairy gear, and made it to work on time.
I've been cooking for us all week, it's been fun. I really enjoy this part of domestic life.
I've been keeping the apartment much more clean, lately, despite falling into depression I don't fall apart on housework too much. I have this funny thing where when I feel awful, I start cleaning, because I might as well do something that makes me feel terrible if I'm going to feel terrible regardless, lol. If I'm to suffer I may as well get something out of it? haha.
Avalanche is good. She purrs when she plays, or gets fed, or looks at me.
I've been trying to teach myself to doodle, still. It's relaxing.
I will try to do very soft gentle dancing, tonight. Finley won't be there.
I've been eating more. And feeling better for it, I think. Calorie restriction drains me of energy and makes healing and recovery difficult. Eating enough food gives me a little belly but I can also stay awake and do things and I recover better - I was able to do 20 pushups and a solid pull-up, head stand, and core workout this morning without too much struggle. Taking my vitamins and supplements. I went back on the estrogen patch and so far no pain, I'm on day 3 so we'll see how it goes, maybe last summer was just bad timing.
Lots to do, but getting lots done, and doing my best to find moments of joy and softness where I can. I still get really down on myself for not pulling more of my weight, but all I can do is keep trying to improve.
Edited to add - soda bread biscuits are done and Josh and I both devoured three each already. SO GOOD.
I had to video Avalanche during our morning play session because she was purring so hard. This always weakens when I point the phone at her but still. SO CUTE.
Feeling okay. Worked hard today. I upped my hours and my foot hurts but otherwise I'm fine. Will see how it goes tomorrow. I can cut back again in April if it's too much. But I like the additional income.
I did start a little bit on website research last night. It's a wild world out there on the interwebs. (Will not get into stuff I found from competitors but, ugh.) I'll figure something out.
I'd like to treat myself to a facial and some fancy skin enzymes for my 50th birthday, we'll see if I actually go through with it. (I pretty much never do.)
Tired tired.
Will try to go to Coffin tonight. I bought Amanda some balloons. It's her birthday Saturday. we are seeing a circus show together that night.
Josh and I are doing really well. Rosy sunny so in love.
Somehow this morning I managed to do my morning exercises, make coffee for me and matcha for Josh, swept the floors, cleaned Avalanche's litter box, made food for myself and for Josh, took a shower, did all the dishes, made myself an herbal Loki's Kiss tea with my own hand-dried peppermint leaves added in and two scoops of collagen powder as my doctor prescribed, got into my fairy gear, and made it to work on time.
I've been cooking for us all week, it's been fun. I really enjoy this part of domestic life.
I've been keeping the apartment much more clean, lately, despite falling into depression I don't fall apart on housework too much. I have this funny thing where when I feel awful, I start cleaning, because I might as well do something that makes me feel terrible if I'm going to feel terrible regardless, lol. If I'm to suffer I may as well get something out of it? haha.
Avalanche is good. She purrs when she plays, or gets fed, or looks at me.
I've been trying to teach myself to doodle, still. It's relaxing.
I will try to do very soft gentle dancing, tonight. Finley won't be there.
I've been eating more. And feeling better for it, I think. Calorie restriction drains me of energy and makes healing and recovery difficult. Eating enough food gives me a little belly but I can also stay awake and do things and I recover better - I was able to do 20 pushups and a solid pull-up, head stand, and core workout this morning without too much struggle. Taking my vitamins and supplements. I went back on the estrogen patch and so far no pain, I'm on day 3 so we'll see how it goes, maybe last summer was just bad timing.
Lots to do, but getting lots done, and doing my best to find moments of joy and softness where I can. I still get really down on myself for not pulling more of my weight, but all I can do is keep trying to improve.
Edited to add - soda bread biscuits are done and Josh and I both devoured three each already. SO GOOD.
I had to video Avalanche during our morning play session because she was purring so hard. This always weakens when I point the phone at her but still. SO CUTE.
