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serafaeryToday was a bit better. Got a lot of work done, feeling a little bit reset.
Lots of things are still totally messed up but that's life.
The eagles are stressing me out so much. For whatever reason, the dominant baby viciously attacks its sibling, and there is a too-close-by nest of ravens that threatens the hatchlings every time the parents leave. In the past, they have left hatchlings alone for looooong stretches. They can't get away with that this year, without losing them to predation. It's going to be horrible to witness and I hope I miss it. Moreso of course I hope it doesn't happen. But already the smaller baby is often on the edge of the nest to try to get away from its super-aggressive sibling (they are both often showing bloody beak wounds), so that span of time when they are at risk of falling will also be horrible. I should just not look lol.
I guess last year was exceptionally gentle and lucky in a lot of ways, even though they lost one of their chicks in a snow storm. They started off with three and two ended up fledging, which was a higher than usual success rate for any eagle nest.
Poor birbs.
I love ravens, I understand the impulse, it's just, they're so much more adaptive and prolific and successful than eagles. sigh. It's strange to think of these massive raptors as the underdogs. But in this situation they are definitely at a disadvantage.
Should get back to my faerie book, it's almost done. A little heavy on the complicate drama plot for my taste but whatevs, I just want my heroes to make it.
I tried another meditation on my "healthy minds" app, this one was all about focusing on the fragility of life and the fleeting miracle of the present moment. Yeah I do that too much already. I am waaaaaaaaaaaaaay too well aware of how tenuous all of this is. The last thing I need is more dwelling on the fact that it could all be erased at any moment. sigh. I guess no app will be entirely perfect for any one person. Except for Finch :)
Lots of things are still totally messed up but that's life.
The eagles are stressing me out so much. For whatever reason, the dominant baby viciously attacks its sibling, and there is a too-close-by nest of ravens that threatens the hatchlings every time the parents leave. In the past, they have left hatchlings alone for looooong stretches. They can't get away with that this year, without losing them to predation. It's going to be horrible to witness and I hope I miss it. Moreso of course I hope it doesn't happen. But already the smaller baby is often on the edge of the nest to try to get away from its super-aggressive sibling (they are both often showing bloody beak wounds), so that span of time when they are at risk of falling will also be horrible. I should just not look lol.
I guess last year was exceptionally gentle and lucky in a lot of ways, even though they lost one of their chicks in a snow storm. They started off with three and two ended up fledging, which was a higher than usual success rate for any eagle nest.
Poor birbs.
I love ravens, I understand the impulse, it's just, they're so much more adaptive and prolific and successful than eagles. sigh. It's strange to think of these massive raptors as the underdogs. But in this situation they are definitely at a disadvantage.
Should get back to my faerie book, it's almost done. A little heavy on the complicate drama plot for my taste but whatevs, I just want my heroes to make it.
I tried another meditation on my "healthy minds" app, this one was all about focusing on the fragility of life and the fleeting miracle of the present moment. Yeah I do that too much already. I am waaaaaaaaaaaaaay too well aware of how tenuous all of this is. The last thing I need is more dwelling on the fact that it could all be erased at any moment. sigh. I guess no app will be entirely perfect for any one person. Except for Finch :)
