Oct. 24th, 2011
Cutting out some mutual friends from here, not because I don't like them or don't care, but because the constant reminders of him are too painful.
Also because apparently people are relaying what I say in locked, friends-only posts that are explicitly posted here in confidence, for the audience I've selected via livejournal only. I've stated this repeatedly in my journal. I think it should go without saying. But I guess it can be too hard sometimes to not repeat what you think concerns another person. It is just my emotional vomiting and is really none of their business. So, no more mutual friends = no more of that.
And to be honest, I think about what you might think of him every time I post something, and I start to question my own motives, and I get more confused and torn up, emotionally. I'm sick of that. No more of that.
I will miss you. It seriously breaks my heart. All over again. As if this hasn't hurt enough already.
Also because apparently people are relaying what I say in locked, friends-only posts that are explicitly posted here in confidence, for the audience I've selected via livejournal only. I've stated this repeatedly in my journal. I think it should go without saying. But I guess it can be too hard sometimes to not repeat what you think concerns another person. It is just my emotional vomiting and is really none of their business. So, no more mutual friends = no more of that.
And to be honest, I think about what you might think of him every time I post something, and I start to question my own motives, and I get more confused and torn up, emotionally. I'm sick of that. No more of that.
I will miss you. It seriously breaks my heart. All over again. As if this hasn't hurt enough already.