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Feb. 13th, 2018
It hurts to receive.
Feb. 13th, 2018 03:57 pmAs I continue to habitually give too much, over-extend myself in my work and my support of others I love, while consistently depleting my own resources and digging into my emergency reserves, I get less and less tolerant of others who give widely and freely, for fear of hurting them, the way I continually hurt myself.
This is not sustainable.
I am more at ease with people who only give a little.
If I could ratchet down, tone down the overly self-sacrificing helpfulness and giving, maybe everyone would benefit, not just in the long term by not losing my services entirely, but also in the short term by being able to more readily accept a more sane and reasonable offering.
Every day boundaries much be reassessed and redrawn. This will never be finished. That is okay.
This is not sustainable.
I am more at ease with people who only give a little.
If I could ratchet down, tone down the overly self-sacrificing helpfulness and giving, maybe everyone would benefit, not just in the long term by not losing my services entirely, but also in the short term by being able to more readily accept a more sane and reasonable offering.
Every day boundaries much be reassessed and redrawn. This will never be finished. That is okay.
