to spawn or not to spawn

whatever's going on with my hormones right now, if there was ever a time I might be receptive to arguments in favor of my spawning, now is the time. I have never wanted children, for so many reasons, but I also used to dream about having twins (they run in my family), women in my family have children later in life, I miss my dad so much and would love to see him reflected in another being, and I just..... wonder. I think the constant stress of a child would break me, though.

mawwage

Wedding things to work on:

Invitation list/address collection
Caterer
Drinks? (Can Courier or Spunky Monkey bring me coffee?)
Music/DJ?
Photog (already talked to Amit, need to decide on hours/services)
Dress
Wings/Feathers?
Decorations
Gifts?
Wedding website with RSVP, wishlist, other deets