utter loneliness

jingy reindeer antlers and solstice dulcimer are not making the tree assembly and lighting any less awful. this used to be my absolute favorite. don't know how to fix it. mom being in hospice might be the end of my holiday cheer.

:(

edit: tyler called me. all better.

been texting and messaging everyone looking for connection tonight, not a single person is responding. what is everyone doing on a saturday night during covid. watching shows probably. i am unreasonably furious, and so lonely. i really needed some friendship, tonight.