too much joint pain to tolerate.

trying fasting to bring down the inflammation. hunger growlies just hit. so tired. might have to just sleep through this beautiful sunlit day. i hurt too much to go out in it much, though i desperately wish to. it will rain the rest of the week, and likely through xmas.

<3

woke up from my nap around 3pm, finally got up around 4, got on my bike about 5pm to head up the Regents hill and to the coop. just needed to move, despite the pain, which woke me up repeatedly. might as well keep fasting now, not hungry. severely depressed but who wouldn't be after that hanukkah zoom.

the bike ride was pleasant. lots of xmas lights to look at. the coop was okay. couldn't find any food cart food for josh, but i had put sweet potatoes in the toaster oven before i left, and we have lots of leftovers from all the cooking i did over the weekend, so he had plenty to eat - veggie tacos and veggie quiche for dinner, and loved the sweet potatoes, he's thanked me for them three times already. sweetie.

still hurting but my mind is a little more clear. maybe tomorrow will be better, even with the rain.

will start sparkling wednesday. just gotta take that leap.