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faery care.
Sep. 28th, 2021 08:18 pmNeed to not string along Anil and set some boundaries, gah, perpetual flirt/tease that I am it's going to be really hard to walk away from the attention. But it's not good for me to play with people this way. Even dance crushes need to be put at arm's length, sometimes. I know things will go badly if I don't do this, soon.
Seeing Finley Friday thank GOD, I will take out all of my weird need for touch and physical attention out on him and it will be marvelous. I know he knows Anil, I'm going to have to mention it, maybe he can help me see what's actually going on here. I don't think his intentions are innocent.
Tyler is MIA again. my heart. (I say that but he messaged me today actually - just not about the thing I wanted him to message me about, lol. I am hopeless.)
I should try to make myself take a bath, tonight. I need some faery care time.
Work was wonderful and uplifting and joyful, today. My customers are so often like long lost sisters. What delights. Support. I got so many compliments and thank-yous and tips and even a song, today. And last night, sparkling some old bellydance friends and a friend who has been battling stage 4 cancer like nothing I've ever seen, I'm so very, very proud of her. she's a cheerful beautiful silly inspiring talented human and every minute I spend with her improves my existence. She invited two very small neighbor girls for sparkles and they were the most darling little princesses who were ridiculously excited for the whole thing, it was magic. I am the luckiest fae.
My husband is the best. My cat is also the best. These candles make me swoon they smell so nice. how is life so wonderful, I can't even comprehend the gloriousness of it. after being so fearful of sustaining myself financially for some 40 years, the feeling of being secure and okay is just, like this safe warm magical cloak over everything I experience. I can't explain how blessed I feel.
bath time. i haven't taken a bath at home since pandemic i don't think.
Seeing Finley Friday thank GOD, I will take out all of my weird need for touch and physical attention out on him and it will be marvelous. I know he knows Anil, I'm going to have to mention it, maybe he can help me see what's actually going on here. I don't think his intentions are innocent.
Tyler is MIA again. my heart. (I say that but he messaged me today actually - just not about the thing I wanted him to message me about, lol. I am hopeless.)
I should try to make myself take a bath, tonight. I need some faery care time.
Work was wonderful and uplifting and joyful, today. My customers are so often like long lost sisters. What delights. Support. I got so many compliments and thank-yous and tips and even a song, today. And last night, sparkling some old bellydance friends and a friend who has been battling stage 4 cancer like nothing I've ever seen, I'm so very, very proud of her. she's a cheerful beautiful silly inspiring talented human and every minute I spend with her improves my existence. She invited two very small neighbor girls for sparkles and they were the most darling little princesses who were ridiculously excited for the whole thing, it was magic. I am the luckiest fae.
My husband is the best. My cat is also the best. These candles make me swoon they smell so nice. how is life so wonderful, I can't even comprehend the gloriousness of it. after being so fearful of sustaining myself financially for some 40 years, the feeling of being secure and okay is just, like this safe warm magical cloak over everything I experience. I can't explain how blessed I feel.
bath time. i haven't taken a bath at home since pandemic i don't think.
