November softness.

Grey soft cool morning, underslept but it feels good to watch my appointments fill up and have people so joyful about coming to see me and pay me for my work, it's really very fulfilling and I'm endlessly grateful.

Only have an hour to run to the farmers market and come back and get dressed and go clean up the studio and sparkle Alex, I can work on orders when I get home, I might not finish them all by 5pm but I can try! They're not overly complicated so should be fine hopefully, if I'm home around 2ish - pumpkin spice will help.

I feel like I should be sad about Halloween being over except that for me it's totally not. I'm still delighting in all the decorations and I've eased into Dia de los Muertos and reconnecting with loved ones and pets and honoring and remembering and it feels really nice.

Maybe that bath can happen tonight, that would be ideal before a full day of work tomorrow.

Still not a peep from Prashant about his speaker. This thing has to be worth like $800, please take it back from me, lol.

One really cool thing about being saddled with the speaker/DJ job for Thriller was that we had amazing sound for dancing at my Halloween party. So, a very sparkly bright silver lining that was probably well worth whatever the microphones will cost me.

It's just kind of sad that Portland is a place where stuff gets regularly stolen out of your car. It didn't used to be like this. Not since I moved here as a 4yo in 1979.

One really nice thing about the party too is that I was able to hold back in certain areas and there was more than enough and I'm so glad I did. I did not order fancy designer cupcakes and we had far and above way too much wonderful baked goods, so that was perfect. I held back with some of the decorating, none of which was needed. I wasn't able to buy a ghost for the upstairs window and it's better I didn't have one. I didn't buy any fancy drinks and people were perfectly happy with lecroix plus whatever else they brought. We didn't have too much candy, just enough to have some extra to give away joyfully when people left. I learned some things from the wedding, thankfully. happy about this.

different ways to connect and restore.

Was really going to take that bath tonight, but I decided I wouldn't feel all the way relaxed while all the costume and halloween decoration boxes were still strewn about the apartment, so I got to work cleaning all of that up, instead. It looks and feels so much better in here, that was getting a little hairy lol. I can bathe tomorrow night or maybe even go soaking at the wellness center after sparkling - I'll be done at 3:15 tomorrow so should be able to make the 4pm soaking time if that feels appropriate. might be kinda perfect. Or I could stay in the studio and work on my website stuff for a few hours and take a bath at home with Nightmare Before Christmas or the Adams Family tomorrow night, we'll see how I feel.

I just binged so much chocolate but I'm so underslept and stressed, it was inevitable. (And delicious! I finally dug into the last few Halloween chocolate minis. I never even got to taste the fangs and coffins and reeses pumpkins and stuff, kids took them all, as they should. I did try a ghost and something else festive.) I'll get a good night's sleep tonight and do better tomorrow. drink more water and tea and eat less of everything. time to get back off the candy train lol.

going to do a shorter asmr video and then snuggle in for the night. one silver lining of having to store my brother's lighting equipment from the halloween party in the garage is that when he comes to pick it up on Saturday, he can take all the other crap that I moved out of his basement for him when he was moving out of the house. I'll be glad to be rid of that equipment and christmas tree stand and etc., though I will need to re-box it all since I'm not willing to part with my rubbermaid roughneck storage bins - I heard rumor they will no longer be made? hopefully the goodwill will have something. I should have bought a couple of those cute halloween purple and orange storage bins while I had the chance, sigh. maybe next year.

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I've been lighting candles in honor of dead loved ones, family, friends, pets. I know it's just a trick humans' brains play on us, but for a moment out of my periphery I saw P-Funk tonight, so vividly, for just a hair of a second, it was like he was right here. It does feel like a visit, when this happens. I loved that cat so. much. he had such a traumatic death that took me months to recover from, and I wasn't able to think about him fondly or lovingly for a very long time. But this year it's been easier, I've been remembering him so fondly, watching old videos - Lunar is a lot like him in some ways (though really a totally different kind of cat - the similarities are more in physical appearance than personality or behavior). P-Funk and I had such a close relationship and unspoken deep understanding of one another, an awareness and fondness that could not be measured but always felt. It's hard not to cry, even though dia de los muertos is supposed to be a celebration.