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The snow showed up in force while we slept. The crows are shouting about it.

Whatever for.

Christmas was about as painful as expected. Without mom, things just need to change. Fortunately my brother was not mean to me, and he agrees with this. Next year we'll just go to Chinese food with the step fam.which will not be painful.

Maybe I can see friends, too.

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I called my mom's caretaker by myself, after a year of trying to get my brother to call her with me, together. I realized it would never happen. and it's so important to me.

It was so nice to hear her voice.

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I do still love christmas, even when it hurts.

Was not a good girl, this year. ( what. of. it. )