happy half-o-ween and walpurgis night

not sure if writing about it will help. i've been avoiding work texts for days. maybe a week? i really need to answer them, just sit and do it, but i'm so mentally blocked about it, there's something overwhelming about it and i just shut down. i have orders and a couple of emails to attend to, also, but the texts are really the biggest mess i need to get through. i have people asking if my number still works or if i'm not receiving texts, they're pinging me repeatedly and confused. i don't mean to ignore customers, i don't want to, it just takes a certain professional mindset to respond and i just can't find it, sometimes.

need to set up some sort of reward for doing it, maybe, not sure what that would be.

i want to go dance tonight. need a little rest and reading first. it's been a nice day off with the joshter. i went to the farmers market and cooked a lot, today, took care of the cat, dropped off rhubarb pie to tyler and cynthia. it's been raining raining raining with the occasional sun break. i can't wait for warmer weather. i thrive in sunshine, as much as i love snow and darkness. these cheerful spring mornings without the bitter chill have been lovely. i go barefoot onto the moist ground outside to feed the crows whatever leftover catfood lunar has left behind from the night before, while i'm making josh's breakfast and my coffee. they wait for me on the utility lines outside the kitchen window in the mornings. it's sweet.