tearful tuesday

lots of tears, today.

my room has still not been cleaned, not since the lookout tower trip, it looks like a tornado came through here.

all i want to do is pop popcorn and drink myself into a pleasant cloud of fluff. i don't normally drink, let alone day-drink, but i just can't deal right now. i don't want to work on mom's memorial flyer and playlist and display board and prayers.

but i will.

i visited her bench today briefly after skating, seeing Loretta for coffee, and sparkling my friend Laura, since it was so so nice out. (I undercharged laura, like i always do, i don't know how to not.) i just sat on it for a moment, just enjoying this gift for her. i don't know what else to do.

josh is getting ready to leave for his first sprint tiathlon. it'll be nice to have some alone time in the apartment.

i think i will allow myself to pop popcorn and make a cocktail after i get my orders out, i need to get them to the post office before five so I have a little over an hour, i think i can manage at least that much.

then after my snack and drink i can focus on cleaning my room and at least lay out the flyer and start to pick some songs, and figure out how the new speaker works.

it's kind of fitting that i'm doing this all alone, i guess.

ice time was too hard, too hard. i think i need a break from skating.