still can't imagine why anyone would want to be close to me.

decided to take next week off sparkling, falling behind on too many things and in too much physical pain.

things i want to get done in my 10 days off....

* taxes
* loan recert
* buy new laptop (this one keeps crashing and is barely functional at this point, it takes two minutes to open a notepad document - installing adobe recently for the purposes of sending PDFs for my loan recertification has installed some lovely mcaffee spam that is making things even worse)
* buy new iphone (research why iphone 12 is banned in europe?)
* update website
* create youtube content for website
* inventory/ordering for website (my poor neglected website - it's such a nice little additional income stream if I don't utterly neglect it like i've been doing for the past year)
* book massage (seeking pain relief)
* go soaking
* book facial (relaxation and also my poor skin is so trashed, I look awful)
* get back on morning workout routine and add in daily new PT exercises (UGH this makes me nauseated to even think about - but it was either cancel all my PT or put work on hold for a week or so to try to get on board with this)
* reconnect with karissa, make more time for friends in general
* find my lost journal and do some therapy writing (hit some fucked up things in therapy that are going to be very disruptive to my emotional well-being over the next several weeks or months - i think the journal might be tucked away in my laptop bag?)