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Avalanche purrpuprring on my lap. She's just the sweetest.
Headache, tired, a little bit scared about how long of a day I have, today, and the next three days after, oof. I am trying to make up for the LA trip all at once, I guess. Hopefully I'll have a little bit of money at the end of it, as I have zero monies at the moment oops.
Yesterday I didn't end up running, sad. But Josh and I did silks for a bit at flow night and I danced a tiny bit (just 3 songs) at Coffin with William after.
Kinda crashed once I got my hair died and all my work done yesterday, no housework or laundry happened, I actually took a nap. I don't know why I was so tired, there's nothing to have caused that, just a mood crash out of nowhere.
I'm starting to wonder if all the gummy vitamins are just too much sugar for me. sigh. I don't want to go back to pills. Maybe I can find a happy medium, here.
Shadowplay tonight, it's Manders' birthday proper come midnight. Figures she's an Aries. They tend to feel like emotional steamrollers, to me. It's welcome when I love them, but it's still... a lot.
A little nervous about seeing Finley tonight, if he comes to Shadowplay. A little nervous about still being eight pounds overweight. I am really struggling with homeostasis (the body's propensity to stay at the same weight despite diet changes) and with hunger in the evenings. I usually can tolerate a little bit of hunger, it is a healthy state, in small doses. But lately I cannot tolerate five minutes of it even. Need to try to eat a good dose of vegetables, today. Reset my blood sugar a bit.
Been sneaking little bowls of Lucky Charms at night, a cereal my dad used to give me on weekends when he would take me after he and my mom split (she never allowed sugary cereals at home). I can't tell if I'm nurturing my inner child, or reverting to a childlike state. Maybe both.
Either way, it's really yummy.
But it messes up my sleep to eat late.
ah well.
......
Lala, my flying trapeze catcher angel superhot Daddy girl, followed me back on insta and 'liked' a few of my silks videos. eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. still crushing. 🌈
Sun is trying to come out. It's supposed to be partly sunny and 60s for the next few days. Definitely needing this break from the rain.
Wish I didn't feel headachey and nauseated. My temperature is slightly elevated and I'm a little worried I've pushed myself too hard somehow. It wasn't with physical activity, for once. But something is off.
Doing way better with my morning workout consistency, at least. I did it almost every morning in LA and am generally only missing 1 morning a week, which is great.
Also brushing my teeth 6 nights a week on average at the moment, which is not perfect but an improvement. At least I don't have long stretches of not brushing at night at all. That's always a sign that something is really wrong. So, doing better.
Ugh how do I get up and get dressed when there is a warm kitty asleep on my lap? She is the sweetest thing. I catch her gazing at me often. It's wonderful. Just posted a bunch of photos and short clips of her on Insta, she's just the most magical cat. She's getting so big! She's probably over 8lbs at this point? Bigger than Darwin or Lunar already.
Playing Depeche Mode a bit this morning....
Headache, tired, a little bit scared about how long of a day I have, today, and the next three days after, oof. I am trying to make up for the LA trip all at once, I guess. Hopefully I'll have a little bit of money at the end of it, as I have zero monies at the moment oops.
Yesterday I didn't end up running, sad. But Josh and I did silks for a bit at flow night and I danced a tiny bit (just 3 songs) at Coffin with William after.
Kinda crashed once I got my hair died and all my work done yesterday, no housework or laundry happened, I actually took a nap. I don't know why I was so tired, there's nothing to have caused that, just a mood crash out of nowhere.
I'm starting to wonder if all the gummy vitamins are just too much sugar for me. sigh. I don't want to go back to pills. Maybe I can find a happy medium, here.
Shadowplay tonight, it's Manders' birthday proper come midnight. Figures she's an Aries. They tend to feel like emotional steamrollers, to me. It's welcome when I love them, but it's still... a lot.
A little nervous about seeing Finley tonight, if he comes to Shadowplay. A little nervous about still being eight pounds overweight. I am really struggling with homeostasis (the body's propensity to stay at the same weight despite diet changes) and with hunger in the evenings. I usually can tolerate a little bit of hunger, it is a healthy state, in small doses. But lately I cannot tolerate five minutes of it even. Need to try to eat a good dose of vegetables, today. Reset my blood sugar a bit.
Been sneaking little bowls of Lucky Charms at night, a cereal my dad used to give me on weekends when he would take me after he and my mom split (she never allowed sugary cereals at home). I can't tell if I'm nurturing my inner child, or reverting to a childlike state. Maybe both.
Either way, it's really yummy.
But it messes up my sleep to eat late.
ah well.
......
Lala, my flying trapeze catcher angel superhot Daddy girl, followed me back on insta and 'liked' a few of my silks videos. eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. still crushing. 🌈
Sun is trying to come out. It's supposed to be partly sunny and 60s for the next few days. Definitely needing this break from the rain.
Wish I didn't feel headachey and nauseated. My temperature is slightly elevated and I'm a little worried I've pushed myself too hard somehow. It wasn't with physical activity, for once. But something is off.
Doing way better with my morning workout consistency, at least. I did it almost every morning in LA and am generally only missing 1 morning a week, which is great.
Also brushing my teeth 6 nights a week on average at the moment, which is not perfect but an improvement. At least I don't have long stretches of not brushing at night at all. That's always a sign that something is really wrong. So, doing better.
Ugh how do I get up and get dressed when there is a warm kitty asleep on my lap? She is the sweetest thing. I catch her gazing at me often. It's wonderful. Just posted a bunch of photos and short clips of her on Insta, she's just the most magical cat. She's getting so big! She's probably over 8lbs at this point? Bigger than Darwin or Lunar already.
Playing Depeche Mode a bit this morning....
