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It's beautiful out. Took Avalanche out for a long long time. She's much cheered.
It's my mom's birthday. She would have been 82. I am a wreck. I was hoping to hang out on the bench today. Her legacy bench at the park that i bought. But I have had a raging headache since last night, and nonstop all day, today. Josh wants to rock climb with Derrick and Cynthia tonight and I can't imagine doing that, as much as I want to see them. I have had tinnitus for the last 2 days. I think this is menopause-related. Definitely related to the headache. It hurts and it's loud.
Need some rest. Going to try to just nap for a sec.
Saw Mark today, he seemed unenthused about my foot and I'm discouraged. He doesn't know an ortho surgeon for me. I guess I will ask Dr. Lee.
I need to call McClanahan's office and I don't want to.
My foot hurts so much. I worked out with Cynthia at the gym this morning. Recumbent bike, boring stretches. I hate gyms. It was awful. I don't really have a choice. If I want exercise. I want to be outside but I can't walk or run or bike without hurting my foot, i still can't dance, and I'm not going to swim in the river, we legally can't, due to pollution.
I want ice cream but I know that won't help me.
I started bleeding again and realized I need to see a gynecologist, to make sure this isn't something more serious than just irregular periods. That is just the last thing I want to do, I hate ob/gyns so much.
Roasted a chicken, they sell old retired egg-laying hens as "roasting hens" at the market for super cheap, chickens most people won't buy because it requires slow-cooking as the meat gets really tough otherwise (I learned this the hard way once lol). I just slow-roast them overnight, and they stay juicy and delicious. It was ready by lunch time after I threw it in the slow-cooker last night with a chopped carrot, green garlic stems, and some red onion, with a little rosemary salt and pepper, and it was perfect. It is so much food and Josh is so happy. Also bone broth. Also less waste, saving a hen that otherwise would not be eaten. Just all around goodness.
Saw my step-dad today, after picking up some raffia at Lippman's and stopping for a brief almond milk latte in the sunshine at Water Ave coffee, since it's on the same block as the party store. All he could talk about was his girlfriend, which is fine. He was nice to me. We didn't mention mom, except for when he accidentally called his girlfriend my mom's name.
It makes sense to be sad today but I still don't like it. wasting a 70 degree sunshiny day. I wish my head didn't hurt. I've eaten nothing but nourishing food. I should feel fine.
this is so painful.
not all days will feel like this.
It's my mom's birthday. She would have been 82. I am a wreck. I was hoping to hang out on the bench today. Her legacy bench at the park that i bought. But I have had a raging headache since last night, and nonstop all day, today. Josh wants to rock climb with Derrick and Cynthia tonight and I can't imagine doing that, as much as I want to see them. I have had tinnitus for the last 2 days. I think this is menopause-related. Definitely related to the headache. It hurts and it's loud.
Need some rest. Going to try to just nap for a sec.
Saw Mark today, he seemed unenthused about my foot and I'm discouraged. He doesn't know an ortho surgeon for me. I guess I will ask Dr. Lee.
I need to call McClanahan's office and I don't want to.
My foot hurts so much. I worked out with Cynthia at the gym this morning. Recumbent bike, boring stretches. I hate gyms. It was awful. I don't really have a choice. If I want exercise. I want to be outside but I can't walk or run or bike without hurting my foot, i still can't dance, and I'm not going to swim in the river, we legally can't, due to pollution.
I want ice cream but I know that won't help me.
I started bleeding again and realized I need to see a gynecologist, to make sure this isn't something more serious than just irregular periods. That is just the last thing I want to do, I hate ob/gyns so much.
Roasted a chicken, they sell old retired egg-laying hens as "roasting hens" at the market for super cheap, chickens most people won't buy because it requires slow-cooking as the meat gets really tough otherwise (I learned this the hard way once lol). I just slow-roast them overnight, and they stay juicy and delicious. It was ready by lunch time after I threw it in the slow-cooker last night with a chopped carrot, green garlic stems, and some red onion, with a little rosemary salt and pepper, and it was perfect. It is so much food and Josh is so happy. Also bone broth. Also less waste, saving a hen that otherwise would not be eaten. Just all around goodness.
Saw my step-dad today, after picking up some raffia at Lippman's and stopping for a brief almond milk latte in the sunshine at Water Ave coffee, since it's on the same block as the party store. All he could talk about was his girlfriend, which is fine. He was nice to me. We didn't mention mom, except for when he accidentally called his girlfriend my mom's name.
It makes sense to be sad today but I still don't like it. wasting a 70 degree sunshiny day. I wish my head didn't hurt. I've eaten nothing but nourishing food. I should feel fine.
this is so painful.
not all days will feel like this.
