plunge.

erf mood crashed this morning, so frustrating. I was meditating with my coffee, a delightful experience, and suddenly got tearful over my mother's hands, and then that orca that carries around her dead calves (why I stopped eating salmon and most all seafood save sardines and clams).

sigh.

I will get through it, I'm just annoyed. It seems like I should not spend 90% of the time depressed. :(

But. I am a work in progress. I will never stop trying. And I have to accept that this is how today will be, and adjust my expectations accordingly.

Sparkling will be a nice distraction, taxes will also serve to keep me occupied. It's a good day to go visit mom's bench in the park, since I'm already too sad for it to make me feel worse, and it might bring some comfort. A grief meditation there might be helpful, today.

Also Shadowplay is tonight! I'm hoping (sorry DJ) that the crowd is a little thin since there was just a big show and my DJ played Tuesday night. Either way, it'll help.

Let's see if I can finish taxes today, that would be amazeballs.