too much life and death contemplation
Jan. 26th, 2021 06:31 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
serafaeryif this is all there is, maybe that is okay, and cherishing the parts i love about it is enough, maybe that is all i'm meant to do, here.
had a really nice conversation with ben. he helped me a lot. he let me vent about tyler some. so grateful. blythe was with him for the entire conversation. it's better this way. keep my head on slightly straighter.
haven't hennaed my hair yet, kinda keep falling apart after about 4pm. s'okay.
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My dad's parents died before I was born. (Including my grandma, where my Fae middle name comes from.) I lost my grandparents on my mom's side very young, and my dad in my 20s. It's really just my brother and I, now. We have some distant once- and twice-removed cousins but they are far away and kind but not close. It's scary and lonely and gives me that feeling of a droplet lost at sea.
had a really nice conversation with ben. he helped me a lot. he let me vent about tyler some. so grateful. blythe was with him for the entire conversation. it's better this way. keep my head on slightly straighter.
haven't hennaed my hair yet, kinda keep falling apart after about 4pm. s'okay.
....
My dad's parents died before I was born. (Including my grandma, where my Fae middle name comes from.) I lost my grandparents on my mom's side very young, and my dad in my 20s. It's really just my brother and I, now. We have some distant once- and twice-removed cousins but they are far away and kind but not close. It's scary and lonely and gives me that feeling of a droplet lost at sea.
