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serafaeryEvery morning that I wake up in a warm, safe apartment surrounded in love is such an overwhelming miracle. The waxwings on the winterberry trees this morning were so beautiful, I stared at them and watched them and thought about how much mom would have loved the sight of them and just started sobbing and haven't really stopped crying since. I'm so stunned at the beauty of life and my luckiness to be here. Practicing letting go. It's really, really, really hard.
going to clear out some stuff from her room today. josh will help. so grateful. pretty much prepped for the cremation, finished all of the tissue paper flowers. I'll take photos. Need to draft some words probably. Was thinking about this morning and crying, before I even rose from bed. Bed is so nice.
need to write a thank-you card for the doctor I'm sending a gift to. It's hard to draft, I just, need to. My gratitude is just too massive, I need to do something with this feeling.
going to clear out some stuff from her room today. josh will help. so grateful. pretty much prepped for the cremation, finished all of the tissue paper flowers. I'll take photos. Need to draft some words probably. Was thinking about this morning and crying, before I even rose from bed. Bed is so nice.
need to write a thank-you card for the doctor I'm sending a gift to. It's hard to draft, I just, need to. My gratitude is just too massive, I need to do something with this feeling.
