progress....
Jan. 31st, 2024 03:34 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
serafaeryon the list so far...
*sunrise bathing
* silks (tonight?)
*food for Josh
*clean kitchen
*walk kitten
* orders
* website updates
* scheduling
*laundry
* get the tree down
* sweep and mop
* clean my room
* clean my office
*refill litter
*refill handsoaps
* loan consolidation
* schedule labs
*schedule Avalanche's next visit
* henna hair (which will force me to take a shower which I desperately need)
* start packing for lookout (got firewood, organized and cleaned out closet, and did laundry all of which will make this much easier)
* more raw food diet research for the meow
*keep eating healthy and less so can feel prettier (I've been doing really well the last 3 days.)
In-between all this is realizing I never texted back Karissa or Gwen or Timo about possibly getting together - friendship is important! Must work on this.
Still haven't decided if I'm going to start drinking or not. But I keep fantasizing about a cocktail date with Timo.
It feels a bit deflating to just think, well, am I just sober now? Forever? With nothing to toot my horn about, just a boring person who doesn't drink? I definitely feel better, but, I also still REALLY miss drinking. Josh was not a fan. So, less would be better, but I'm not sure if none is better. Does that make sense?
Just realized the first is tomorrow, not today, so I have one more day before I have to post my hours for Feb, yaaaaaaaaay! It feels like being gifted a free day.
This January was really hard. Good job everyone who made it through.
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* silks (tonight?)
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* orders
* website updates
* scheduling
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* get the tree down
* sweep and mop
* clean my room
* clean my office
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* loan consolidation
* schedule labs
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* henna hair (which will force me to take a shower which I desperately need)
* start packing for lookout (got firewood, organized and cleaned out closet, and did laundry all of which will make this much easier)
* more raw food diet research for the meow
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In-between all this is realizing I never texted back Karissa or Gwen or Timo about possibly getting together - friendship is important! Must work on this.
Still haven't decided if I'm going to start drinking or not. But I keep fantasizing about a cocktail date with Timo.
It feels a bit deflating to just think, well, am I just sober now? Forever? With nothing to toot my horn about, just a boring person who doesn't drink? I definitely feel better, but, I also still REALLY miss drinking. Josh was not a fan. So, less would be better, but I'm not sure if none is better. Does that make sense?
Just realized the first is tomorrow, not today, so I have one more day before I have to post my hours for Feb, yaaaaaaaaay! It feels like being gifted a free day.
This January was really hard. Good job everyone who made it through.
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Date: 2024-02-05 01:21 am (UTC)I've come to accept that many humans lack empathy so they cannot really fathom situations that haven't happened to them. I saw a don't tread on me meme that had the snake but instead of don't tread on me it said "Nothings real until it happens to me"... is comical but true in many situations.
I haven't struggled w/sobriety but have seen others up close and personal. I don't know that i've ever been addicted to anything other than friendship...but seeing people struggle w/substance abuse...sobriety seems very difficult and worth celebrating in any increments people wish to do so.
One thing that I've been thinking as of late is to not think of my life in so many close timeline absolutes. I started two different "professional" careers and while i'd like to not venture from either of those ...there's no telling what'll come so I just have remind myself that life is fluid and I can continue to work towards my long term goals. FOr me thats a new state to live in and a fresh start.
Sorry this January has been hard, I hope February treats you better!