serafaery

The problem with calorie restriction is that my energy tanks. I want to do something but I'm too tired and I don't want to eat to fix it soooooooooooo. Might just watch MSCL and call it a night? I do need to take some vitamins which means I should eat a tiny bit of fat, maybe a butter pop is in order. Was very active all day but now I cannot brain and I hurt too much to move and it's still a struggle to breathe and my nose is still running like a faucet. Need to message Orvis that tomorrow is a no-go. Finley asked if I'm dancing tonight, I just replied that I'm still too sick without any elaboration, he sent a cry-face in response, and I'm just, meh. So many hard feelings around that person. And he's totally unaware, I'm sure he's assuming everything is peachy, which just makes it ten times worse. I hate that people are able to do this, go along blissfully ignorant of others' pain, consistently. I have always been hypervigilant and never had this capability.

I am excited to find new connections that are healthier for me. Or just focus on Josh. All of the above.