pain and snow.
Nov. 19th, 2024 08:53 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
serafaeryFeeling a bit despondent. I awoke with a headache, not great. Had a really stressful day yesterday in which I got stood up for sparkles, long convoluted story but I was trying to save an 80+ yo lady a long bus ride so went across town to her area and paid for parking, only for her to misunderstand and take the bus ride to my studio instead, and she forgot her phone so I ended up just getting stood up with no reply until she got back home hours later. sigh. This is what happens when I try to help people. So much wasted time and resources. On both sides.
I was desperate for cardio yesterday but it was hailing hard and raining and so cold, I just couldn't make myself gear up for a walk or hike.
So, I know this headache and depression is partly due to lack of exercise. I did go to silks in the morning but that is only strength training, no cardio really happens there. It can't.
I hate the gym. But I was planning to force myself to go today anyway. But if the mountain is ready, that would be much better.
I guess the thing is - I really hurt my foot dancing in the wrong boots on Thursday, it still hurts a ton, and I'm scared that I will realize that along with no longer being able to run, skate, or rock climb, that cross country skiing will also be out of the question. This would be devastating for so many reasons. Although I suppose I could instead invest hundreds of dollars in a pair of winter boots and snow shoes, which would give me better options - it's awkward and slow and hard on my hip and not nearly as fun as skiing, but I would have far more trails accessible and those don't include trail fees, since there is no grooming involved. And I do have the rest of the skills and gear required for it. Sigh.
My hip is screaming at me. I'm not sure why I'm in a pain flare. It started after the stress of getting stood up yesterday and I tried to treat it with a sugary treat after dinner, probably had the opposite effect, but it felt good in the moment.
I really should just go to Teacup and try to ski. Even if it doesn't work, I'll be out in the peaceful snow and I can get that really amazing coffee at that cart on the way, there is an organic cart that does exquisite lattes, like, the best I've ever had, up there randomly in Zigzag on the mountain. I could even treat myself to dinner at Timberline on the way home if I wanted to get really fancy. I dunno. I should go. I just wish I weren't in so much pain. I kind of wanted to just sit and nurse my wounds and write, today, and do nothing. I skipped my morning exercises because of the pain. But, in my experience, even though it is hard, mountains fix everything. Absolutely everything.
Should try to schedule an appt with the foot and ankle clinic, first - I've tried multiple times with no success, this will be my last attempt.
I was desperate for cardio yesterday but it was hailing hard and raining and so cold, I just couldn't make myself gear up for a walk or hike.
So, I know this headache and depression is partly due to lack of exercise. I did go to silks in the morning but that is only strength training, no cardio really happens there. It can't.
I hate the gym. But I was planning to force myself to go today anyway. But if the mountain is ready, that would be much better.
I guess the thing is - I really hurt my foot dancing in the wrong boots on Thursday, it still hurts a ton, and I'm scared that I will realize that along with no longer being able to run, skate, or rock climb, that cross country skiing will also be out of the question. This would be devastating for so many reasons. Although I suppose I could instead invest hundreds of dollars in a pair of winter boots and snow shoes, which would give me better options - it's awkward and slow and hard on my hip and not nearly as fun as skiing, but I would have far more trails accessible and those don't include trail fees, since there is no grooming involved. And I do have the rest of the skills and gear required for it. Sigh.
My hip is screaming at me. I'm not sure why I'm in a pain flare. It started after the stress of getting stood up yesterday and I tried to treat it with a sugary treat after dinner, probably had the opposite effect, but it felt good in the moment.
I really should just go to Teacup and try to ski. Even if it doesn't work, I'll be out in the peaceful snow and I can get that really amazing coffee at that cart on the way, there is an organic cart that does exquisite lattes, like, the best I've ever had, up there randomly in Zigzag on the mountain. I could even treat myself to dinner at Timberline on the way home if I wanted to get really fancy. I dunno. I should go. I just wish I weren't in so much pain. I kind of wanted to just sit and nurse my wounds and write, today, and do nothing. I skipped my morning exercises because of the pain. But, in my experience, even though it is hard, mountains fix everything. Absolutely everything.
Should try to schedule an appt with the foot and ankle clinic, first - I've tried multiple times with no success, this will be my last attempt.
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