small self-pity sesh

[serafaery]

There is this odd back-stabbing sensation I've felt a few times now, where someone in my age group loses their mother or both parents, and I harbor this feeling of sympathy and camaraderie for them for years, only to find out later that they had loving, supportive, living grandparents and other extended family the entire time. I lost all of that long before I lost my parents.

sigh.