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serafaeryIt is a calm-before-the-storm kind of day after a stormy windy night. I want to get out there and get a hard bike ride in, since it's possible I might not be able to do anything for a while, if I go through with the surgery Friday. I still can't decide! I tried coin flips, I just can't pick. I feel terrible both ways. :(
Maybe because I just in general feel terrible.
I'm supposed to let them know "in the morning" and it's almost 11am, ACK.
Do I pull the plug or not? It's really hard to move forward not knowing.
I need a reset on my diet. I have been eating more and more and more crap over the last year or so, I think depression and menopause is getting to me. I keep cooking the same healthy food for Josh and then eating packaged crap myself.
Not entirely. I do eat a lot of healthy things too. It's just. A lot of it isn't. And I didn't used to eat like that.
It can't be helping with this pre-pre-breast cancer situation. :( I need to go back on an anti-inflammatory diet.
It's really hard to do over the holidays.
So many cookies.
I think I am about 50% cookie at the moment.
Anyway. My dream list if I could do everything I want to do, today:
*quick whip up food for Josh (he ordered Thai)
* laundry
* shower
* ship order
* mail baby present to Tyler's nephew (I got Vaughn a Sophie la girafe - he's teething. A lil mini half-Tyler - Vaugn's dad is Tyler's identical twin so this is mostly true - is a sparkle in my heart, even though I'm likely to not even meet him for years)
* DECIDE ABOUT THE FREAKING SURGERY - it's 2 days away, I have to make a decision.
* hard bike ride
* hang out at the coffee shop with a peppermint mocha writing xmas cards
* bake gingerbread cookies, chocolate chip cookies, shortbread cookies, visit and deliver to neighbors
* get probiotics at the store to prep for surgery Friday IF surgery is happening??????
Less urgent:
* wrap presents (find better wrapping paper - where did that Santa paper go?)
* decorate trees (I got them up this morning, including the lil baby live one from Tyler)
* schedule sparkles if I'm not going to do surgery
* schedule UPS pickup for misdelivered packages
* schedule leaf gutter cleaning quote
* deposit check
* return Target stool that's too small
* return Goodwill items that are not what I need
Stuff I want to do later:
* clean/organize my room
* clean/organize bathroom
* clean/organize garage cabinets
Maybe because I just in general feel terrible.
I'm supposed to let them know "in the morning" and it's almost 11am, ACK.
Do I pull the plug or not? It's really hard to move forward not knowing.
I need a reset on my diet. I have been eating more and more and more crap over the last year or so, I think depression and menopause is getting to me. I keep cooking the same healthy food for Josh and then eating packaged crap myself.
Not entirely. I do eat a lot of healthy things too. It's just. A lot of it isn't. And I didn't used to eat like that.
It can't be helping with this pre-pre-breast cancer situation. :( I need to go back on an anti-inflammatory diet.
It's really hard to do over the holidays.
So many cookies.
I think I am about 50% cookie at the moment.
Anyway. My dream list if I could do everything I want to do, today:
*
* laundry
* shower
* ship order
* mail baby present to Tyler's nephew (I got Vaughn a Sophie la girafe - he's teething. A lil mini half-Tyler - Vaugn's dad is Tyler's identical twin so this is mostly true - is a sparkle in my heart, even though I'm likely to not even meet him for years)
* DECIDE ABOUT THE FREAKING SURGERY - it's 2 days away, I have to make a decision.
* hard bike ride
* hang out at the coffee shop with a peppermint mocha writing xmas cards
* bake gingerbread cookies, chocolate chip cookies, shortbread cookies, visit and deliver to neighbors
* get probiotics at the store to prep for surgery Friday IF surgery is happening??????
Less urgent:
* wrap presents (find better wrapping paper - where did that Santa paper go?)
* decorate trees (I got them up this morning, including the lil baby live one from Tyler)
* schedule sparkles if I'm not going to do surgery
* schedule UPS pickup for misdelivered packages
* schedule leaf gutter cleaning quote
* deposit check
* return Target stool that's too small
* return Goodwill items that are not what I need
Stuff I want to do later:
* clean/organize my room
* clean/organize bathroom
* clean/organize garage cabinets
