serafaery

Trying to get ready for a little lookout tower trip, been dragging my feet all morning. It's just one night and I realized I am dreading it because a) my foot and back hurt so much and b) last lookout tower trip ended so badly. But this won't be hard - Josh will be there, I don't have to do silks, all I have to do is walk slowly in the woods looking for mushrooms. I already made all the food, I just have to pack it. We can also eat in town, the town close to it is a tiny little depressed fruit town with spectacular views and rolling hills and it's sooooooo adorable, I've gone their twice to view comets as they have very dark skies. They have an ice cream shop and a darling quaint little historic hotel that serves brunch - I've never been there but I hear it's lovely and I hope I can get the boys to go.

I just am in a lot of pain and need an easy gentle couple of days.

It just sucks that I used to love these outings so much, and now I am afraid of them. I hope I can pull out of this. I realized last night I've been eating poorly again and withdrawing and cocooning and it's not serving me. I skipped my stretches entirely yesterday and I'm so mad at myself because I'm in so much pain now and I could have avoided it with just the bare minimum of effort, but I just didn't have it? Frustrating. I used to be so disciplined, I used to be able to push through discomfort, I am so out of practice and it's such an uphill battle to rebuild.

One small step at a time. It's the only way I've ever gotten anywhere.

Today is a new day and I get to try again. So lucky and grateful for that.

Dufur's catch phrase (pronounced DOO-fer) for the city is, "What can we Dufur you?" lol.