Perseids, pirates, faeries.

[serafaery]

Thanks to ghost_nymph for the reminders about the Perseid Meteor Shower tonight. Heading to see Pirates 3 (better late than never) tonight, and will try to find a place to stargaze afterwards.

Been a strange Sunday, not much accomplished, feeling a bit listless and guilty for not keeping busy or working hard on something. Anything. Guh.

I did update on Faerieworlds, finally. Pix over at the Diary.

Comments

[woolly-socks.livejournal.com]

You have an over-developed work ethic. I used to have one of those. They are a bitch to get rid of. *hugs*

[serafaery.livejournal.com]

Yeah - how do you do it? I need help with this.

I really appreciate these reminders from you. You are always so gentle, and you're consistently correct in reminding me that beating myself up over this stuff is totally useless and I don't deserve it. You're wonderful. Thank you. {{{huggles}}}

[woolly-socks.livejournal.com]

Gremlin taming (http://www.tamingyourgremlin.com/) was the key for me. Also some pretty specific counseling, and having friends (Comrade and vaudevilles who make a point of looking at me funny when I start going I must I must I must.

I definitely recommend checking out the gremlin thing. There's a book, called Taming Your Gremlin, which you can get either from the above site or Amazon, or some bookshops might stock it. It's lightweight, like a kids' book, not a big brick of a self-help tome. It worked for me because I think visually, and in narratives and symbols. I get the feeling you are similar to me in this respect, so it might be very powerful for you.

Gremlins can take any sort of form, but basically they are your inner critic, who bullies you into doing stuff and makes you feel worthless and miserable. Mine turned out to be an invisible midget, once I broke his invisibility spell he looked like a demon. (Did that sound crazy? It's not, honest) Andandand, the plot thickens: he also turned out to just be the hired thug of another very well-meaning gremlin I call Geekgirl, a teacher's pet who wants to get everything right. She's an eleven year old girl who looks like Hermione from the first Harry Potter movie. Always with her hand raised: I know, I know! i can fix it, I can get it right!

Sometimes the process can even be fun, if you can laugh at yourself a little, see the little games your head plays on you. It also hurts like hell, because you find yourself letting go of ideas you don't need, but were very attached to. It's SO worth it.

[serafaery.livejournal.com]

That looks like good stuff! I've struggled with that a bit in the past - letting go of things I didn't want, but felt very attached to. It's a very odd sensation, the pain of letting go of a painful thing. ??? Heh.

[woolly-socks.livejournal.com]

Yeah, it's a tough one. But I am pragmatic about it. You want change, you gotta do something differently.

oxoxox

[anthalus.livejournal.com]

One of these days I have to make it out there for Faerieworlds....

[serafaery.livejournal.com]

I hope so! It'd be awesome to see you. :)

[posiefairy.livejournal.com]

i missed the persieds. theyre always amazing.

sending your package this weeke, havent forgotten, just a bear of a week last week.

[serafaery.livejournal.com]

I missed them too - stupid clouds! No worries with the package, take your time. I know you're good for it, and I don't have anything pressing I need the wings for. {{hugs}}

[ghost-nymph.livejournal.com]

[serafaery.livejournal.com]

Thank you, sweets! It was too overcast here for Perseids - next time, next time.