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Today is my mother's 77th birthday.
My brother and I took her to the park last Monday, as we do most weeks. Normally this is a peaceful time for her, but her paranoia was in full swing, this week. We are at a loss as to what to do for her.
She had such a full life and so many friends, when she was well. I wish there was some way to reduce her suffering and comfort her. I wish she could come live with me forever, like she keeps asking. Even if I quit work to care for her 24/7, I would still have to hire help to keep her safe and healthy, and I cannot financially or emotionally afford to do so. And I don't want to give up my entire life for her. So we do weekly visits and walks. And this is what they look like, now.
My brother and I took her to the park last Monday, as we do most weeks. Normally this is a peaceful time for her, but her paranoia was in full swing, this week. We are at a loss as to what to do for her.
She had such a full life and so many friends, when she was well. I wish there was some way to reduce her suffering and comfort her. I wish she could come live with me forever, like she keeps asking. Even if I quit work to care for her 24/7, I would still have to hire help to keep her safe and healthy, and I cannot financially or emotionally afford to do so. And I don't want to give up my entire life for her. So we do weekly visits and walks. And this is what they look like, now.
