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liquid sunshine.
Jun. 13th, 2021 10:06 pmKitty seems a little uneasy tonight, very content but also just wants to stay close. She follows me into rooms and sits nearby. She's not a lap cat or a sleep-in-the-bed-with-me cat (at least not yet), but she does like to cuddle for ten minutes or so at a time. Then she seems to get a little over-stimulated. She reminds me of P-Funk in this regard. Although eventually he needed to sleep cheek to cheek with me. My love. sigh.
So much I need to write about but it's all swirling and hard to capture. I am so much happier after reconnecting with Finley it's ridiculous. I feel like a completely different person. It's sort of frustrating in some ways because now that things are more stable, I really don't need a feline companion. ugh. But I think overall I will be happier with her, especially when things get hard again. Like life tends to do. Yanno. But right now I'm just stressed about who to ask to cat-sit this weekend, because Josh wants to go to the coast. And if I need to get different litter or a different litter pan while we're away because if it's not scooped twice a day she might have issues. sigh. It's probably just too tiny of a box. I can get a bigger one. furf.
In the morning I need to push appointment link to all of my text/email customers, as well as instructions to check the website going forward. I'll save half the appointments for a publish push on Tuesday there. Maybe Tuesdays will be my new-appt-listing day or something.
I need to take Luna to the vet, fulfill orders, sweep the apartment, sparkle with Alley tomorrow, schedule a teeth cleaning and exam, get my shoulder x-rayed, schedule silks and social time, schedule a hike, schedule Loki viewing with Finley, and strategize some future dreams/plans going forward. I broke a skate today so I need to research how to get them repaired. I need to manifest a new place to do silks regularly. I need to calorie restrict differently - a couple fasting days a week would be helpful to cut down on this extra weight I'm tired of dragging around and hurting from. I need to schedule a facial and soaking/massage time. I need to make weekly time for art. I need to clean up my work space and push a new product listing this week, and create some new youtube content. I should re-create my etsy site (I took it down during pandemic because I couldn't afford the listing fees when sales were so sparse.) I am using Lune Innate's last "flirting with desires" to play with the idea of dreaming of what my future could look like - I want 2019 level success again. Wings were happening. I was the closest I ever had been to Tyler, who still despite all the trials, remains my most inspiring and uplifting friendship. I want that feeling again, that playfulness of being a faery along with the hard work paying off in terms of my business. I want deeper connections with friends, I want new friends, I want to develop whatever this is with Finley into something meaningful and lasting if I can (I know I am only half of the equation in any relationship). I want to deepen my connection to Josh, too. And continue what I have going with Gregory. I am beginning to think I should just breathe when it comes to Pixie. I keep reaching out but unless I literally go to her house, I cannot see her, and I don't love that. I need people who are willing to come to me, also, or at least meet me halfway. I want to reconnect with Fred and Steph again, now that we're all vaccinated.
Being vaccinated is ridiculously liberating. It seems strange but it's just... it makes covid seem more like just the flu. Which is also an awful and dangerous disease! But one that we've just over time come to accept the risks for, and shrug off vaccinations for, despite its annual death toll. I have the feeling from everything I've learned about what happened with the Spanish Flu that this is how covid will eventually be treated, too. So I'm kind of anxious to just get there already. But of course, I don't want to be reckless. And I'm grateful I live in a part of the country where people are conscientious and careful. I don't know if I can handle anymore lockdowns. ugh. If we could just wait maybe 5 years for the next pandemic I might almost be recovered by then. Let me have my 50th birthday party first, plz k thx.
It poured down rain all day, I was hungover from a really fun night with Gregory and too much rose, I ate good food and saw my brother, cooked breakfast and dinner for Josh and lazed around watching asmr videos and old post-industrial music videos and ignored my work (I still need to catch up on my unemployment claim filing and expense tracking, and also do some laundry and clean out my car and schedule and oil change? oops). I had 3 very different but all totally perfect cups of coffee. liquid sunshine. It was a really beautiful, perfect day.
I want to get Luna a fancy cat tree. Here she is comforting me with face nuzzles during my hangover while I was trying to rally for ice skating this morning (I skated fine except for the part where my boot broke). And also her on the couch looking very peaceful.
So much I need to write about but it's all swirling and hard to capture. I am so much happier after reconnecting with Finley it's ridiculous. I feel like a completely different person. It's sort of frustrating in some ways because now that things are more stable, I really don't need a feline companion. ugh. But I think overall I will be happier with her, especially when things get hard again. Like life tends to do. Yanno. But right now I'm just stressed about who to ask to cat-sit this weekend, because Josh wants to go to the coast. And if I need to get different litter or a different litter pan while we're away because if it's not scooped twice a day she might have issues. sigh. It's probably just too tiny of a box. I can get a bigger one. furf.
In the morning I need to push appointment link to all of my text/email customers, as well as instructions to check the website going forward. I'll save half the appointments for a publish push on Tuesday there. Maybe Tuesdays will be my new-appt-listing day or something.
I need to take Luna to the vet, fulfill orders, sweep the apartment, sparkle with Alley tomorrow, schedule a teeth cleaning and exam, get my shoulder x-rayed, schedule silks and social time, schedule a hike, schedule Loki viewing with Finley, and strategize some future dreams/plans going forward. I broke a skate today so I need to research how to get them repaired. I need to manifest a new place to do silks regularly. I need to calorie restrict differently - a couple fasting days a week would be helpful to cut down on this extra weight I'm tired of dragging around and hurting from. I need to schedule a facial and soaking/massage time. I need to make weekly time for art. I need to clean up my work space and push a new product listing this week, and create some new youtube content. I should re-create my etsy site (I took it down during pandemic because I couldn't afford the listing fees when sales were so sparse.) I am using Lune Innate's last "flirting with desires" to play with the idea of dreaming of what my future could look like - I want 2019 level success again. Wings were happening. I was the closest I ever had been to Tyler, who still despite all the trials, remains my most inspiring and uplifting friendship. I want that feeling again, that playfulness of being a faery along with the hard work paying off in terms of my business. I want deeper connections with friends, I want new friends, I want to develop whatever this is with Finley into something meaningful and lasting if I can (I know I am only half of the equation in any relationship). I want to deepen my connection to Josh, too. And continue what I have going with Gregory. I am beginning to think I should just breathe when it comes to Pixie. I keep reaching out but unless I literally go to her house, I cannot see her, and I don't love that. I need people who are willing to come to me, also, or at least meet me halfway. I want to reconnect with Fred and Steph again, now that we're all vaccinated.
Being vaccinated is ridiculously liberating. It seems strange but it's just... it makes covid seem more like just the flu. Which is also an awful and dangerous disease! But one that we've just over time come to accept the risks for, and shrug off vaccinations for, despite its annual death toll. I have the feeling from everything I've learned about what happened with the Spanish Flu that this is how covid will eventually be treated, too. So I'm kind of anxious to just get there already. But of course, I don't want to be reckless. And I'm grateful I live in a part of the country where people are conscientious and careful. I don't know if I can handle anymore lockdowns. ugh. If we could just wait maybe 5 years for the next pandemic I might almost be recovered by then. Let me have my 50th birthday party first, plz k thx.
It poured down rain all day, I was hungover from a really fun night with Gregory and too much rose, I ate good food and saw my brother, cooked breakfast and dinner for Josh and lazed around watching asmr videos and old post-industrial music videos and ignored my work (I still need to catch up on my unemployment claim filing and expense tracking, and also do some laundry and clean out my car and schedule and oil change? oops). I had 3 very different but all totally perfect cups of coffee. liquid sunshine. It was a really beautiful, perfect day.
I want to get Luna a fancy cat tree. Here she is comforting me with face nuzzles during my hangover while I was trying to rally for ice skating this morning (I skated fine except for the part where my boot broke). And also her on the couch looking very peaceful.
