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physical notes to self?
Oct. 5th, 2021 11:24 amwas about to ask the ladies if they wanted to do craft night over zoom tomorrow night, but then i got invited to a kizomba class at tango berretin Wednesday night and omg I wanna gooooooooooooo yay.
Maybe I could do crafting tonight at the studio? I'll ask the gang.
k asked.
baking a pumpkin for pie randomly.
Here is my silly Halloween shopping video, it's silly:
I typically am not one for mindless consumerism, but I allow myself small indulgences from time to time. During these trips, I got a hand towel, ghosty socks and skelly gloves, a bat blanket, chocolate, and some boo chips. Minimal harm for maximum joy, hopefully?
Did a bunch of housework this morning. It was really hard because Josh got all stressed out every time I bumped the broom against anything, it's so fucking hard to clean when someone is in my space I hate it. But the floors are clean, the kitchen is gleaming, and I feel better. Should throw in some laundry, too.
Still thinking maybe I need to start try to use a physical planner. I feel like just the act of sitting and working on it, while it sounds time consuming, would be an activity that would show myself that hey, I am worthy of devoting time to improving my life and my world. Everyone else is not more important than me.
Josh came into the kitchen and interrupted my cooking and cleaning and mini attempt to blog/vlog how to bake a pumpkin pie from scratch to ask advice about interviewing for a job and he went on and on and ooooooooooonnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn about career stuff, just verbally processing at me, using me as a sounding board, using me, using me, using me - he gets so much fucking support and feedback and what do I get? Ignored. At some point I had to cut him off and say, "I have things to do." My life cannot keep revolving around him, it's not fair. I don't know how to fix this other than to get mad. so that's my tactic for today, lol. I'm not being mean. I still let him talk a ton and gave him a lot of feedback, as always. Just drawing lines, for once. At some point energy has to be saved for myself.
I actually managed to henna my hair last night, on top of all the other work that I did. And I bought myself some of that fancy face oil Tyler recommended, I found a booster with only 2 ingredients on Credo Beauty so it's on its way. I never buy perfume but am considering a $20 bottle, is that weird? It feels so alien. Perfume has not been a turn on for me since high school. But maybe it is for some adults, still? Maybe if it's the right one. (In hs the only one I liked was Obsession. Sooooo 90s omg.)
Maybe I could do crafting tonight at the studio? I'll ask the gang.
k asked.
baking a pumpkin for pie randomly.
Here is my silly Halloween shopping video, it's silly:
I typically am not one for mindless consumerism, but I allow myself small indulgences from time to time. During these trips, I got a hand towel, ghosty socks and skelly gloves, a bat blanket, chocolate, and some boo chips. Minimal harm for maximum joy, hopefully?
Did a bunch of housework this morning. It was really hard because Josh got all stressed out every time I bumped the broom against anything, it's so fucking hard to clean when someone is in my space I hate it. But the floors are clean, the kitchen is gleaming, and I feel better. Should throw in some laundry, too.
Still thinking maybe I need to start try to use a physical planner. I feel like just the act of sitting and working on it, while it sounds time consuming, would be an activity that would show myself that hey, I am worthy of devoting time to improving my life and my world. Everyone else is not more important than me.
Josh came into the kitchen and interrupted my cooking and cleaning and mini attempt to blog/vlog how to bake a pumpkin pie from scratch to ask advice about interviewing for a job and he went on and on and ooooooooooonnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn about career stuff, just verbally processing at me, using me as a sounding board, using me, using me, using me - he gets so much fucking support and feedback and what do I get? Ignored. At some point I had to cut him off and say, "I have things to do." My life cannot keep revolving around him, it's not fair. I don't know how to fix this other than to get mad. so that's my tactic for today, lol. I'm not being mean. I still let him talk a ton and gave him a lot of feedback, as always. Just drawing lines, for once. At some point energy has to be saved for myself.
I actually managed to henna my hair last night, on top of all the other work that I did. And I bought myself some of that fancy face oil Tyler recommended, I found a booster with only 2 ingredients on Credo Beauty so it's on its way. I never buy perfume but am considering a $20 bottle, is that weird? It feels so alien. Perfume has not been a turn on for me since high school. But maybe it is for some adults, still? Maybe if it's the right one. (In hs the only one I liked was Obsession. Sooooo 90s omg.)
