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self motivation difficulties
Nov. 18th, 2021 08:25 pmIt's time to get primped and go dance and I just want to fall asleeeeeeeep omg.
Got up early and tried to book a lookout for my birthday, but they are just too popular. I got timber butte but it's not the one I wanted.
Tyler still congratulated me.
sigh. I will keep trying.
Josh had a little mini frantic panic in the bathroom, because he was feeling itchy and wanted to take a shower, but wanted to scoop the cat litter first, and the cat litter trash was full, so then he put it in the kitchen trash and then spilled the kitchen trash because it was also full (we've both been a bit strained and let it slide) and I was soooo sshrleeepy, I was like, what are you yelling about what in the heck is going on in there? Finally I said, "Do you need me to take the trash out?" "Yes, that would be so helpful," he said with this deep tone of relief, and he jumped in the shower while I gathered up all the trash.
I'm so glad I did! Lunar came out with me, extra early, we never walk this early. It was so peaceful. The rain hadn't started yet so everything was dry and hushed. The sky was this gentle shade of soft grey over soft blue, still slightly brightening after sunrise, almost all the way lit but not quite. The birds were active, the crows were being funny, the wind was so still. Almost all the leaves are gone now but it's not wintery yet, and it wasn't wet. It was so lovely just to exist in that moment, outside, with the cat, and the peacefulness of the just-after-sunrise morning. So beautiful.
grateful for these little breaths of beauty in my busy, underslept days.
I want to daaaaance, maybe coffee is in order, erf.
Maybe if I take a sexy photo for Finley he'll feel better - I confessed that I watched the season finale of Sense8 without him while I was sparkling Wispra at their place tonight, and he was not happy. I've never seen him look so disappointed in me, lol. Except for that time I said I was enjoying Coldplay, lol. And when I told him I was engaged. hrm.
How do I turn on the sass with dark sleepy circles under my eyes?
At least Anil doesn't seem to mind. He seems to like my quiet always-sleepiness, when we dance, ha.
Got up early and tried to book a lookout for my birthday, but they are just too popular. I got timber butte but it's not the one I wanted.
Tyler still congratulated me.
sigh. I will keep trying.
Josh had a little mini frantic panic in the bathroom, because he was feeling itchy and wanted to take a shower, but wanted to scoop the cat litter first, and the cat litter trash was full, so then he put it in the kitchen trash and then spilled the kitchen trash because it was also full (we've both been a bit strained and let it slide) and I was soooo sshrleeepy, I was like, what are you yelling about what in the heck is going on in there? Finally I said, "Do you need me to take the trash out?" "Yes, that would be so helpful," he said with this deep tone of relief, and he jumped in the shower while I gathered up all the trash.
I'm so glad I did! Lunar came out with me, extra early, we never walk this early. It was so peaceful. The rain hadn't started yet so everything was dry and hushed. The sky was this gentle shade of soft grey over soft blue, still slightly brightening after sunrise, almost all the way lit but not quite. The birds were active, the crows were being funny, the wind was so still. Almost all the leaves are gone now but it's not wintery yet, and it wasn't wet. It was so lovely just to exist in that moment, outside, with the cat, and the peacefulness of the just-after-sunrise morning. So beautiful.
grateful for these little breaths of beauty in my busy, underslept days.
I want to daaaaance, maybe coffee is in order, erf.
Maybe if I take a sexy photo for Finley he'll feel better - I confessed that I watched the season finale of Sense8 without him while I was sparkling Wispra at their place tonight, and he was not happy. I've never seen him look so disappointed in me, lol. Except for that time I said I was enjoying Coldplay, lol. And when I told him I was engaged. hrm.
How do I turn on the sass with dark sleepy circles under my eyes?
At least Anil doesn't seem to mind. He seems to like my quiet always-sleepiness, when we dance, ha.
