to the bone.

cannot ever be dominating when most of the time i'm completely consumed with self-doubt.

i can sense what other people want and serve them, so it can look like i'm a switch, sometimes, but i'm not, i'm just an empath who is oriented toward service. servant. boys who want this want a mother, not domination.

or maybe they just want to be wanted.

who knows.

cannot stop thinking about food. still overeating. going to watch a film about anorexia. it has keanu reeves in it! he is the adorablest.