Migraine-land

Things continue to improve with Joshter, which is nice. There is a lot of re-arranging our dynamic that feels healthy but also kind of tiring, just, so much to relearn.

Maybe it only feels that way because I got taken out by a migraine yesterday. I thought this was from lack of sleep, my most consistent trigger, and that rest would fix it, but after a full night's sleep, it's still here. It is giving me terrible nausea and weird stomach problems, and the muscles in my neck and shoulders are super inflamed today. I'm not sure what's going on. It feels like another kind of illness, worse than just fatigue. Maybe I ate something that I had a reaction to? Unsure. I was eating a little bit of leftover canned kidney beans and tomato sauce from the stew I cooked for Josh earlier in the week, I so rarely partake in canned goods, maybe my body can't handle whatever leeched out of the can linings into the food, I don't know.

I'm also still recovering from being on antibiotics, which for me feels like its own kind of illness.

My tinnitus is much worsened by this migraine.

I also am experiencing a lot of dizziness and very extreme brain fog.

Need to go to the post office to drop off orders, will go do that and grab a latte and see about doing some writing at a nearby quiet cafe for an hour or so, see how I feel.

All I can seem to tolerate is simple carbs, right now. Plain white toast and saltines. Things I rarely eat but do seek out whenever feeling poorly. I had some yogurt with fruit and even that made me feel bad. It's something I have for breakfast near-daily, so I should have been fine.

Maybe I just need to snuggle in with Pride and Prejudice on the couch and just accept that I am still unwell.