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organizing thoughts for wednesday
Mar. 11th, 2026 09:08 amThis is very boring personal reflection/organization stuff, probably of no interest to anyone but myself. I would not expect anyone to bother reading, but, hi.
Feeling a lot better this morning. Had decaf at the cafe while working on taxes yesterday, so my sleep was better than if I'd had an afternoon latte.
Had a nice morning with the cat, catching up on dishes and sitting with my coffee outdoors in the freezing cold rain, under cover, with a cat on my lap.
I fixed the canopy over her cat door so the table there that she uses to get in and out is protected from the weather, as is she, right in that spot in the side strip of the yard (we have just gravel on the side strips which is fine. Offers her more shelter and safety, just in case of raptors at night or some such. It took me some time and expense and effort to get it right but I'm happy with it now, it's waterproof and shedding rain nicely.
At the apartment, on days like this, to get my morning outside time, I would sit on the steps under a big deodar cedar tree, which shelters most of the rain if it's a light rain like this. I would be a little wet and cold but it was doable. I would say hi to the dogs that passed by, and Avalanche would stare at me through the window. Now she can join me, I can sit in a chair, we can watch the birds together and I can have my coffee without perching on concrete and leaning to the side awkwardly anytime anyone needed to use the stairs. I miss the tree, but this is nicer.
I feel so lucky to live this life and have these relaxed mornings. Safe and cozy.
My body has yet to believe I am safe but I am enjoying this newfound state of existence as best I can. Even improvements in life take adjustment.
The daffodils are so cheerful. I've been picking the flopped over ones and bringing them inside, it's quite the bouquet in the kitchen, a bright burst of yellow happiness.
I'm still bundled in my puffy coat and hat but my hands are warm again, after getting frozen outside, and I'm sipping collagen coffee. I tried another brand and it seems good. I got some ancient nutrition a couple months ago that was rancid so I'm really careful about sourcing this stuff, as it's really my only consistent source of animal protein. vital proteins seems like the best quality so far but this is garden of life and it's fine.
...
The weather is miserable but that's what indoors is for. It's that bone chilling wet cold and icy rain all day long. We're getting dumped on Thurs/Friday, glad I'm working Thursday and Friday I can hunker down and maybe push to wrap up taxes. It's gutter cleaning day, I feel bad for them, it was supposed to be yesterday but they rescheduled. At least they'll have an idea of where water is blocked?
...
Surgical site bothers me less and less. My body still feels uncomfortable generally, but I can deal.
...
much I want to do today:
* cook something for Josh
* silks
* taxes work
* measurements and photos for Dave for silks rigging
* henna hair
* shower
* doodling
* grief meditation
* walk outdoors (bring a raincoat)
* housework (laundry, clean up stuff from the trip/put away rock climbing stuff, it's time to vacuum, sweep front entryway, litter box scooping, etc.)
* get groceries/cat food on the way home
* ask some questions about the a/c installation process (such as: if the furnace dies in a few years, can we reasonably expect to find one that is compatible with the new a/c we installed? We're having a hard time deciding whether to replace our perfectly functional 26yo furnace when we do the a/c, since it's about half the price of getting a new furnace separately later. I have a lot of aversion to replacing old things that still work, and have read online that people have Trane gas furnaces that are much older than this still going strong, the most important thing is good installation and maintenance which appears to be on our side with this one. The previous owner was using metal filters for it, which is great for the motor, but not as good for air quality. This is just one of many issues I have to consider in this decision and it's a new and stressful and the most money I've ever spent on anything aside from last year's roof. Whole house central a/c costs more than my car. It's a little confusing why that would be, but, here we are. I also need to consider potential rat penetration areas if they are going to cut holes in our house - the last tech was talking about a small drain for the condensation for the a/c; a 3" hole in the wall is an open invitation to the rats to come inside, if it isn't done right.)
...
Should share some photos from the Red Rock Canyon trip, we had some nice hikes out there. The Nevada mountains have a lot to offer, and Red Rock Canyon is beautiful.
...
Trying to debate if it's worth it to spoil myself and pay for the upgraded version of the self-care app I use (Finch). It seems silly to pay for it when the free version works perfectly well, but the plus features do make it more fun and it's not that much, in the grand scheme of things. I just feel slightly annoyed that several of my friends that I invited to join paid immediately and I feel like, I've given that app so much money indirectly already. But it is a really nice app. I use it to stay off of facebook, instagram, and youtube - I still visit those areas but much less frequently now. And it really helps me organize my housework and other adulty tasks, as well as helping me to take my vitamins and stop and look at the sky and other really helpful self-care exercises.
Feeling a lot better this morning. Had decaf at the cafe while working on taxes yesterday, so my sleep was better than if I'd had an afternoon latte.
Had a nice morning with the cat, catching up on dishes and sitting with my coffee outdoors in the freezing cold rain, under cover, with a cat on my lap.
I fixed the canopy over her cat door so the table there that she uses to get in and out is protected from the weather, as is she, right in that spot in the side strip of the yard (we have just gravel on the side strips which is fine. Offers her more shelter and safety, just in case of raptors at night or some such. It took me some time and expense and effort to get it right but I'm happy with it now, it's waterproof and shedding rain nicely.
At the apartment, on days like this, to get my morning outside time, I would sit on the steps under a big deodar cedar tree, which shelters most of the rain if it's a light rain like this. I would be a little wet and cold but it was doable. I would say hi to the dogs that passed by, and Avalanche would stare at me through the window. Now she can join me, I can sit in a chair, we can watch the birds together and I can have my coffee without perching on concrete and leaning to the side awkwardly anytime anyone needed to use the stairs. I miss the tree, but this is nicer.
I feel so lucky to live this life and have these relaxed mornings. Safe and cozy.
My body has yet to believe I am safe but I am enjoying this newfound state of existence as best I can. Even improvements in life take adjustment.
The daffodils are so cheerful. I've been picking the flopped over ones and bringing them inside, it's quite the bouquet in the kitchen, a bright burst of yellow happiness.
I'm still bundled in my puffy coat and hat but my hands are warm again, after getting frozen outside, and I'm sipping collagen coffee. I tried another brand and it seems good. I got some ancient nutrition a couple months ago that was rancid so I'm really careful about sourcing this stuff, as it's really my only consistent source of animal protein. vital proteins seems like the best quality so far but this is garden of life and it's fine.
...
The weather is miserable but that's what indoors is for. It's that bone chilling wet cold and icy rain all day long. We're getting dumped on Thurs/Friday, glad I'm working Thursday and Friday I can hunker down and maybe push to wrap up taxes. It's gutter cleaning day, I feel bad for them, it was supposed to be yesterday but they rescheduled. At least they'll have an idea of where water is blocked?
...
Surgical site bothers me less and less. My body still feels uncomfortable generally, but I can deal.
...
much I want to do today:
* cook something for Josh
* silks
* taxes work
* measurements and photos for Dave for silks rigging
* henna hair
* shower
* doodling
* grief meditation
* walk outdoors (bring a raincoat)
* housework (laundry, clean up stuff from the trip/put away rock climbing stuff, it's time to vacuum, sweep front entryway, litter box scooping, etc.)
* get groceries/cat food on the way home
* ask some questions about the a/c installation process (such as: if the furnace dies in a few years, can we reasonably expect to find one that is compatible with the new a/c we installed? We're having a hard time deciding whether to replace our perfectly functional 26yo furnace when we do the a/c, since it's about half the price of getting a new furnace separately later. I have a lot of aversion to replacing old things that still work, and have read online that people have Trane gas furnaces that are much older than this still going strong, the most important thing is good installation and maintenance which appears to be on our side with this one. The previous owner was using metal filters for it, which is great for the motor, but not as good for air quality. This is just one of many issues I have to consider in this decision and it's a new and stressful and the most money I've ever spent on anything aside from last year's roof. Whole house central a/c costs more than my car. It's a little confusing why that would be, but, here we are. I also need to consider potential rat penetration areas if they are going to cut holes in our house - the last tech was talking about a small drain for the condensation for the a/c; a 3" hole in the wall is an open invitation to the rats to come inside, if it isn't done right.)
...
Should share some photos from the Red Rock Canyon trip, we had some nice hikes out there. The Nevada mountains have a lot to offer, and Red Rock Canyon is beautiful.
...
Trying to debate if it's worth it to spoil myself and pay for the upgraded version of the self-care app I use (Finch). It seems silly to pay for it when the free version works perfectly well, but the plus features do make it more fun and it's not that much, in the grand scheme of things. I just feel slightly annoyed that several of my friends that I invited to join paid immediately and I feel like, I've given that app so much money indirectly already. But it is a really nice app. I use it to stay off of facebook, instagram, and youtube - I still visit those areas but much less frequently now. And it really helps me organize my housework and other adulty tasks, as well as helping me to take my vitamins and stop and look at the sky and other really helpful self-care exercises.
