serafaery

sooooooooooooooooooooooo, i've been a complete emotional wreck for a few months now. and really all of my life, ha. (it definitely feels like that when in the throes of a depressive downswing.) so a few weeks ago, i took away access to my locked entries from basically everyone because i didn't want to expose anyone to my ugliest processing with any sort of regularity. i occasionally post publicly and then hide them a couple hours later, just to feel like i shared something for a moment.

i was hoping to make more kind of mid-range entries, that were personal enough to be engaging but not gross. but i haven't been able to do that very well.

so anyway, if you feel like access to my basically self-therapy journal, here, would be beneficial or interesting to you, and would not cause any upset or harm, feel free to ask. i regularly contradict myself and make false claims about myself and the world, as i try to make sense of the insanity in my head and around me. but it's just thoughts being processed - about 11% of what i write here is genuine truth reflective of who i am as a person. so. i dunno. not sure how to move forward with this journal. i journal compulsively, have done so since i was 13, that will never stop. it's the sharing part that i go back and forth on.

much love. i appreciate any journals that share anything personal, it's really comforting and nice to still be able to connect to a handful of humans and see their experiences reflected through this little portal, here. thanks for being.