serafaery

had a nice day, tough, emotionally, but how can i complain when everything is fine but my brain just decides it hates me? i was sooooooooooooo miserable on the ice, this morning, i'm just so distraught and alone out there, i hate that feeling, i don't have any focus, what is the point other than "skate" which is way too vague and open-ended, i have no goals, no accomplishments to work toward, no reward at the end other than "i made myself skate," it pretty much is just torture. but i remember it being fun, once upon a time, and i keep thinking maybe one day it will be again.

my shoulder is so messed up that my left arm was cramping during a spin. a SPIN. wth. that has literally never happened to me.

ageing SUX.

*pout*

there's this line in the Matrix (spoiler) where Niobe says, "I know it doesn't seem fair, but neither does getting old, and you don't hear me complaining" that's fine for you Niobe but I am whining my ass off about it, lol.